Mepanicalways
27-11-11, 23:10
Not feeling great today anxiety levels up there with mount everist and attacks one after the other .
My anxiety and panic attacks are all down to health issues after having cancer of the thyroid x2 now I feel like my whole life is taken up with constant bloody fear of the C word and any other health issues that creep in to my head .
Tomorrow I have a hospital check up with my oncologist doctor which I was not worrying about but last night I felt what I think is a lump on the top of my neck near my spine and now my mind is working overtime and I am thinking oh s**t . I have now worried my self in to a full blown panic overdrive and as i sit and type this my body aches and my head just dont feel like it belongs to me .
My husband has put up with me being like this for a good few years but he always tell me to pull myself together you do it to yourself .....Yes I Know but i just wish just once you can understand what it is like to go through a panic attack , how it makes you feel , I would like to talk to keep my mind occupied when they strike but he wont talk to me . I feel like my mum is the only one who understands but I dont think its fair to burden her all the time with it . I feel at an all time low again and can't see a way out .:weep:
My anxiety and panic attacks are all down to health issues after having cancer of the thyroid x2 now I feel like my whole life is taken up with constant bloody fear of the C word and any other health issues that creep in to my head .
Tomorrow I have a hospital check up with my oncologist doctor which I was not worrying about but last night I felt what I think is a lump on the top of my neck near my spine and now my mind is working overtime and I am thinking oh s**t . I have now worried my self in to a full blown panic overdrive and as i sit and type this my body aches and my head just dont feel like it belongs to me .
My husband has put up with me being like this for a good few years but he always tell me to pull myself together you do it to yourself .....Yes I Know but i just wish just once you can understand what it is like to go through a panic attack , how it makes you feel , I would like to talk to keep my mind occupied when they strike but he wont talk to me . I feel like my mum is the only one who understands but I dont think its fair to burden her all the time with it . I feel at an all time low again and can't see a way out .:weep: