duke246810
30-11-11, 18:40
Hi everyone,
As you probably have realised i havnt been posting alot lately, as i havnt felt the need to. Ive been feeling alot more relaxed and happier actually with everything. Just a few days ago it went way down hill though.. Ive been getting terrible pains in my stomach which get increased when i eat, i know the doctor wont do tests or examine me, so whats the point in going? Now they have anxiety on my records they will never belive me.. therefore i am alone. I know this could just be anxiety, but i havnt suffered in so long and suddenly this severe pain comes on, its not indegestion as i suffer from that but its not that, i eat and i still get acid telling me to eat more.
What i am also worried about is that my health anxiety is not just health anxiety now.. It's turned into Health, social, OCD and Extreme phobias.. I have developed a phobia of eating meats, food cooked by anyone else, alot of free range stuff (like eggs), i wont eat fish, fruit, fruit juices, Takeaways, currys, bolognese and the list goes on.... I wont drink drinks someone else has made me. Its getting to the point where i get constapated and clogged up and i feel extremely weak, i have a highly energetic job where i have to use alot of my energy, but i dont have breakfast either.. Sometimes i forget my food and go the whole day without a drink or anything to eat to.... Im so paranoid of everything, i can't live normally anymore as im scared of literally.... everything! I have to touch things a number of times otherwise ill die, and i have to make sure my hands are clean. I have visions and pictures in my head of falling over and splitting my head open and dying of a bleed to the brain. I find it hard to go out in public, i get nervous my eyes begin to burn and get itchy so i have to keep blinking and people think im a weirdo. I have developed extreme phobias of spiders (i know alot of people are scared of them) but they get me into full blown panic attacks where i scream and cry. There is just not much i cant do anymore, this is destroying my life. Doctors won't listen anymore, family won't listen, ive got nobody.. just my stupid little self.. :( sorry for it being so long x
---------- Post added at 18:40 ---------- Previous post was at 18:29 ----------
I know your all probably sick of me, but this is the only place i can resort to now :( Also i noticed that I feel myself gagging all the time! And i get really guilty about everything that i cry :(
As you probably have realised i havnt been posting alot lately, as i havnt felt the need to. Ive been feeling alot more relaxed and happier actually with everything. Just a few days ago it went way down hill though.. Ive been getting terrible pains in my stomach which get increased when i eat, i know the doctor wont do tests or examine me, so whats the point in going? Now they have anxiety on my records they will never belive me.. therefore i am alone. I know this could just be anxiety, but i havnt suffered in so long and suddenly this severe pain comes on, its not indegestion as i suffer from that but its not that, i eat and i still get acid telling me to eat more.
What i am also worried about is that my health anxiety is not just health anxiety now.. It's turned into Health, social, OCD and Extreme phobias.. I have developed a phobia of eating meats, food cooked by anyone else, alot of free range stuff (like eggs), i wont eat fish, fruit, fruit juices, Takeaways, currys, bolognese and the list goes on.... I wont drink drinks someone else has made me. Its getting to the point where i get constapated and clogged up and i feel extremely weak, i have a highly energetic job where i have to use alot of my energy, but i dont have breakfast either.. Sometimes i forget my food and go the whole day without a drink or anything to eat to.... Im so paranoid of everything, i can't live normally anymore as im scared of literally.... everything! I have to touch things a number of times otherwise ill die, and i have to make sure my hands are clean. I have visions and pictures in my head of falling over and splitting my head open and dying of a bleed to the brain. I find it hard to go out in public, i get nervous my eyes begin to burn and get itchy so i have to keep blinking and people think im a weirdo. I have developed extreme phobias of spiders (i know alot of people are scared of them) but they get me into full blown panic attacks where i scream and cry. There is just not much i cant do anymore, this is destroying my life. Doctors won't listen anymore, family won't listen, ive got nobody.. just my stupid little self.. :( sorry for it being so long x
---------- Post added at 18:40 ---------- Previous post was at 18:29 ----------
I know your all probably sick of me, but this is the only place i can resort to now :( Also i noticed that I feel myself gagging all the time! And i get really guilty about everything that i cry :(