rachel1980
02-12-11, 00:43
hi all
so ive joined this site as i think im going mad... i just wanted to share howi feel becuase noone understnads me and if i hear pull y ourlsef togetehr and get on with it, theres nothing wrong.. when im trying so so hard i think i'll scream and express my anger at the people i care most about
Ive suffered from what i can only describe as terrifying periods of panic since 2003. most recently the worst bout meant i started taking setraline two years ago, was on 100, reduced it to 50 over the summer 2011 but then increased up to 75 after 6 weeks of r&r after surgery when i started to feel spaced out and couldnt think straight... i never really got back on full kilter, i then moved into my own flat and for the first month was fine but then started waking up mid night in panic, which quickly spread to feeling intense panic all day, foggy head, not able to think straight... i reduced the dose to 50 mg about two weeks ago, had 3 days where i felt ok, and then bam this week has been awful, like im dreaming, im scared, paniced, dazed and confused... thing is now im not sure what to do... stop taking the pills or increase the dose up to 100 again... i just want to get to a point where i can function - i loose my train of thought quickly, wonder if i have spoken when i say something, its like im totally numb inside, i feel like im disapearing, i cant remeber the last time i had a thought that wasnt related to panic, i have no idea how im holding down a job at the minute, every day seems to last for a week, and i feel like a rabbit in head lights... constantly, a few collegues have commented that im jumpy, one asked if i was on drugs (she knows im taking setraline) which i just found infuriating, but also very worrying because surely i must have been acting really strangely... or maybe im just being paranoid and they just thought i was a bit more tense than normal, not mental like i think they must be thinking...
im not looking for advice on what to do meds wise, im just wondering if anyone has experiecneed weird sensation reducing a dose of meds, and found increasing them back up makes them work better? my doctor seems happy to write me persciptions willinilly and i just want to be drug free....
so ive joined this site as i think im going mad... i just wanted to share howi feel becuase noone understnads me and if i hear pull y ourlsef togetehr and get on with it, theres nothing wrong.. when im trying so so hard i think i'll scream and express my anger at the people i care most about
Ive suffered from what i can only describe as terrifying periods of panic since 2003. most recently the worst bout meant i started taking setraline two years ago, was on 100, reduced it to 50 over the summer 2011 but then increased up to 75 after 6 weeks of r&r after surgery when i started to feel spaced out and couldnt think straight... i never really got back on full kilter, i then moved into my own flat and for the first month was fine but then started waking up mid night in panic, which quickly spread to feeling intense panic all day, foggy head, not able to think straight... i reduced the dose to 50 mg about two weeks ago, had 3 days where i felt ok, and then bam this week has been awful, like im dreaming, im scared, paniced, dazed and confused... thing is now im not sure what to do... stop taking the pills or increase the dose up to 100 again... i just want to get to a point where i can function - i loose my train of thought quickly, wonder if i have spoken when i say something, its like im totally numb inside, i feel like im disapearing, i cant remeber the last time i had a thought that wasnt related to panic, i have no idea how im holding down a job at the minute, every day seems to last for a week, and i feel like a rabbit in head lights... constantly, a few collegues have commented that im jumpy, one asked if i was on drugs (she knows im taking setraline) which i just found infuriating, but also very worrying because surely i must have been acting really strangely... or maybe im just being paranoid and they just thought i was a bit more tense than normal, not mental like i think they must be thinking...
im not looking for advice on what to do meds wise, im just wondering if anyone has experiecneed weird sensation reducing a dose of meds, and found increasing them back up makes them work better? my doctor seems happy to write me persciptions willinilly and i just want to be drug free....