hektisk
02-06-06, 06:26
Hello,
I just found this site after doing some google searches for anxiety and motion and thought I should join. For some background, I've had *something* for roughly the past two years. I guess it began two summers ago when I was watching a baseball game and using the computer like any other night. I looked quickly from the computer screen to the TV and all of a sudden I felt very awkward (happened so fast, not even sure what it felt like initially), so I got up and walked to my parents room in a panic, feeling completely out of sorts on the way, like I was walking at an angle. My parents calmed me down (I was 18 or had just turned 19 at the time) and stayed with me for a while, but when they'd ask me what was wrong I couldn't really explain it, except for the 'walking at an angle' thing. I felt odd and antsy for a few days afterwards but I couldn't figure out what was wrong. I made my way to my doctor and he said that I likely had vestibular neuritis and said that it'd go away soon. After a week it didn't get any better so I went back and was told the same thing. So, I went along day-to-day waiting for it to get better but it didn't. I went back to college in the fall and I found that it was having a real impact on my life. While always a homebody, I found myself staying in my room more than ever, not accepting invitations to go out at night especially. I couldn't really define what was wrong (except that I felt like I was constantly in motion) but I knew it was really impacting my life.
I honestly don't really remember what else happened that year except that I became less social (I stayed and remain close with my few close friends but others I started talking a lot less to and hanging out a lot less with). Anyway, I kept on, but a lot of normal actions started becoming a real chore. I guess it stayed about that way through the next summer (that is, last summer) and school year (the school year that just ended). The only differences are that 1) I started going home about every other weekend from school and 2) I again went to my doctor this past November or so and he sent me to the only vestibular specialist in Boston. I met with the doctor in Boston who examined me and didn't find anything (he didn't think I ever had neuritis) and he scheduled me for all sorts of motion tests. I had the tests done (which took hours and hours, it was not a fun time) but they all came back negative - which was very disconcerning for me, as I was actually hoping that something treatable would be found. So, that wasn't a success.
Anyway, I just graduated while I thought that moving back home would help things a little bit but I've found that things are actually starting to get a little worse. While last year I was able to umpire LL baseball (though there were issues - I couldn't umpire any of the 7:30pm games because of the lack of sunlight, as being outside in the dark really made me feel awful and VERY antsy), I've been putting it off this year, much to the chagrin of my parents (as I'm more or less just staying home and it makes me seem real lazy) as I'm really not sure if I could handle it or not. I went to the store today to purchase a game and I felt awful while standing there waiting for someone to help me, like no matter how I walked or where I went to I couldn't feel comfortable or keep my mind off the uneasiness I felt. I've dealt with these kinds of issues for the past two years or so but for the most part if I felt uneasy walking into a bookstore once I got inside and started looking at books I could keep my mind off of it and feel somewhat normal for a few minutes - but no such luck today. I eventually got out but I felt terrible the whole time, to the point where if I was supposed to go anywhere else but home afterwards I don't know if I would have (I later rejected my mom's request that we go out to eat together because of it). Anyway, I spoke at length with my parents tonight and we decided we're going to look at more treatments etc (while they knew that I had problems and such, for the
I just found this site after doing some google searches for anxiety and motion and thought I should join. For some background, I've had *something* for roughly the past two years. I guess it began two summers ago when I was watching a baseball game and using the computer like any other night. I looked quickly from the computer screen to the TV and all of a sudden I felt very awkward (happened so fast, not even sure what it felt like initially), so I got up and walked to my parents room in a panic, feeling completely out of sorts on the way, like I was walking at an angle. My parents calmed me down (I was 18 or had just turned 19 at the time) and stayed with me for a while, but when they'd ask me what was wrong I couldn't really explain it, except for the 'walking at an angle' thing. I felt odd and antsy for a few days afterwards but I couldn't figure out what was wrong. I made my way to my doctor and he said that I likely had vestibular neuritis and said that it'd go away soon. After a week it didn't get any better so I went back and was told the same thing. So, I went along day-to-day waiting for it to get better but it didn't. I went back to college in the fall and I found that it was having a real impact on my life. While always a homebody, I found myself staying in my room more than ever, not accepting invitations to go out at night especially. I couldn't really define what was wrong (except that I felt like I was constantly in motion) but I knew it was really impacting my life.
I honestly don't really remember what else happened that year except that I became less social (I stayed and remain close with my few close friends but others I started talking a lot less to and hanging out a lot less with). Anyway, I kept on, but a lot of normal actions started becoming a real chore. I guess it stayed about that way through the next summer (that is, last summer) and school year (the school year that just ended). The only differences are that 1) I started going home about every other weekend from school and 2) I again went to my doctor this past November or so and he sent me to the only vestibular specialist in Boston. I met with the doctor in Boston who examined me and didn't find anything (he didn't think I ever had neuritis) and he scheduled me for all sorts of motion tests. I had the tests done (which took hours and hours, it was not a fun time) but they all came back negative - which was very disconcerning for me, as I was actually hoping that something treatable would be found. So, that wasn't a success.
Anyway, I just graduated while I thought that moving back home would help things a little bit but I've found that things are actually starting to get a little worse. While last year I was able to umpire LL baseball (though there were issues - I couldn't umpire any of the 7:30pm games because of the lack of sunlight, as being outside in the dark really made me feel awful and VERY antsy), I've been putting it off this year, much to the chagrin of my parents (as I'm more or less just staying home and it makes me seem real lazy) as I'm really not sure if I could handle it or not. I went to the store today to purchase a game and I felt awful while standing there waiting for someone to help me, like no matter how I walked or where I went to I couldn't feel comfortable or keep my mind off the uneasiness I felt. I've dealt with these kinds of issues for the past two years or so but for the most part if I felt uneasy walking into a bookstore once I got inside and started looking at books I could keep my mind off of it and feel somewhat normal for a few minutes - but no such luck today. I eventually got out but I felt terrible the whole time, to the point where if I was supposed to go anywhere else but home afterwards I don't know if I would have (I later rejected my mom's request that we go out to eat together because of it). Anyway, I spoke at length with my parents tonight and we decided we're going to look at more treatments etc (while they knew that I had problems and such, for the