Foxtrot
06-12-11, 15:21
Hi
I have recently had a lot of experiences in my life that have caused me to become very anxious and suffer panic attacks together with feelings of worthlessness.
I cared for an elderly lady for 2 years and became a bit isolated. She was then taken into a home and I was left without any support from social services. I managed to get myself a job and just after I finished my training I had my house and car vandalised. This left me feeling very vulnerable and anxious. I went to work for a week and then had a meltdown. I was off work for 5 weeks with anxiety and my doctor suggested a phased return. During that time the elderly lady I cared for died which left me feeling bereft. We were very close; she was one of my best friends. I feel so alone now. I went back to work on a supposed phased return. The first 3 days were finishing at 9pm and then back on to 11pm finish. I had asked if I could change my shifts to an earlier finish but this was refused.
On the night I went back onto the normal shift I had a breakdown. I ended up in tears but my anxiety had been rising all night. I left in tears and had to drive home at 11.30pm to an empty house (apart from my dogs - my saviours!). The following day I was even worse than I was previously and had to resign as I couldnt face going back there.
The doctor has now signed diagnosed me as having severe stress. I am now on librium; have been on citaloprim for a long time together with co-codamol for a back problem.
I feel very lost and have these feelings of possibly never being able to cope with a job again. I don't want to go on about it but I am feeling very low; keep thinking "is this it; this is what my life's become" and if it wasn't for my dogs I wouldn't get up in the morning. They are what keeps me going.
I'm hoping to find ways of getting myself back together again and becoming the person I once was.
Thank you for listening.
Foxtrot
I have recently had a lot of experiences in my life that have caused me to become very anxious and suffer panic attacks together with feelings of worthlessness.
I cared for an elderly lady for 2 years and became a bit isolated. She was then taken into a home and I was left without any support from social services. I managed to get myself a job and just after I finished my training I had my house and car vandalised. This left me feeling very vulnerable and anxious. I went to work for a week and then had a meltdown. I was off work for 5 weeks with anxiety and my doctor suggested a phased return. During that time the elderly lady I cared for died which left me feeling bereft. We were very close; she was one of my best friends. I feel so alone now. I went back to work on a supposed phased return. The first 3 days were finishing at 9pm and then back on to 11pm finish. I had asked if I could change my shifts to an earlier finish but this was refused.
On the night I went back onto the normal shift I had a breakdown. I ended up in tears but my anxiety had been rising all night. I left in tears and had to drive home at 11.30pm to an empty house (apart from my dogs - my saviours!). The following day I was even worse than I was previously and had to resign as I couldnt face going back there.
The doctor has now signed diagnosed me as having severe stress. I am now on librium; have been on citaloprim for a long time together with co-codamol for a back problem.
I feel very lost and have these feelings of possibly never being able to cope with a job again. I don't want to go on about it but I am feeling very low; keep thinking "is this it; this is what my life's become" and if it wasn't for my dogs I wouldn't get up in the morning. They are what keeps me going.
I'm hoping to find ways of getting myself back together again and becoming the person I once was.
Thank you for listening.
Foxtrot