mat
11-12-11, 00:48
Okay, I won't just ask, I'm going to answer it myself. Maybe it helps someone. Maybe you can add to it what I don't see or refuse to admit. I think writing it might help me feel better. Actually at the moment I am more angry and frustrated with myself than anxious.
- Every morning I wake up and I know how the day will be like. I will be anxious and it will suck. Feeling better doesn't seem like a realistic option. Why I surrender to the assumption it will be like every other day last few years? Weakness, but maybe too cause I don't always realize this. No wonder I am anxious lol.
- I've got a habit of avoiding situations where I might be scared more. Need more disciplin, though I already have some. I also need to notice this more, and realize I should just man up and engage in the fight (figurative fight).
- I actually believe I might have brain damage, or be permanently damaged some way, or go insane any day soon. I also think something really makes me unable to not be anxious, forever. Well, if this wasn't so why would i be anxious. But somewhere I know this isn't so, why the hell do I let this happen? :doh:
- I am obsessed with this anxiety problem of mine.
- I'm not always very motivated to get rid of what mild anxiety i still have.
Okay, this felt good. More frustrated, but also more hopeful i'll get somewhere :).
- Every morning I wake up and I know how the day will be like. I will be anxious and it will suck. Feeling better doesn't seem like a realistic option. Why I surrender to the assumption it will be like every other day last few years? Weakness, but maybe too cause I don't always realize this. No wonder I am anxious lol.
- I've got a habit of avoiding situations where I might be scared more. Need more disciplin, though I already have some. I also need to notice this more, and realize I should just man up and engage in the fight (figurative fight).
- I actually believe I might have brain damage, or be permanently damaged some way, or go insane any day soon. I also think something really makes me unable to not be anxious, forever. Well, if this wasn't so why would i be anxious. But somewhere I know this isn't so, why the hell do I let this happen? :doh:
- I am obsessed with this anxiety problem of mine.
- I'm not always very motivated to get rid of what mild anxiety i still have.
Okay, this felt good. More frustrated, but also more hopeful i'll get somewhere :).