johansaken
11-12-11, 06:44
Back again. I havent been on here for awhile. And I havent had anxiety for 11 months.
Before I suffered from Borderline, panicanxiety, Social Phobia and depression.
After being home for a years (cause I was was sick in these diagnoses) I started school this fall (in August), and faced everything that I was afraid of everyday for months without any reaction from within.
Thats the backstory. Anyway. Yesterday my brother visited me and my family and we came to talk about my father alot, who ruined my childhood. He was a drunk and I saw and experinced horror everyday of my first years til I hit the age of 5.
I was in therapy for the last 4 years. And was bornagain christian on the 17th of January. havent had any problems with anxiety since then.
until now. Until yesterday when my brother talked about those times.
After he left I felt that something wasnt right but I couldnt tell what it was. later I realized that I started to feel ill after he talked about it.
Evening came and the feeling wouldnt go away. Been having troubles falling asleep aswell (which I believe is connected to the fact that I've been under stress in school and such).
Anyway. I been feeling really wierd. as if something is wrong. As if Im burnt out, like both I and the world is out of place. And I can feel fear creep in. and it feeds the anxiety.
I come to you guys, for you help me in ways many others cant.
I come to
Before I suffered from Borderline, panicanxiety, Social Phobia and depression.
After being home for a years (cause I was was sick in these diagnoses) I started school this fall (in August), and faced everything that I was afraid of everyday for months without any reaction from within.
Thats the backstory. Anyway. Yesterday my brother visited me and my family and we came to talk about my father alot, who ruined my childhood. He was a drunk and I saw and experinced horror everyday of my first years til I hit the age of 5.
I was in therapy for the last 4 years. And was bornagain christian on the 17th of January. havent had any problems with anxiety since then.
until now. Until yesterday when my brother talked about those times.
After he left I felt that something wasnt right but I couldnt tell what it was. later I realized that I started to feel ill after he talked about it.
Evening came and the feeling wouldnt go away. Been having troubles falling asleep aswell (which I believe is connected to the fact that I've been under stress in school and such).
Anyway. I been feeling really wierd. as if something is wrong. As if Im burnt out, like both I and the world is out of place. And I can feel fear creep in. and it feeds the anxiety.
I come to you guys, for you help me in ways many others cant.
I come to