Janeeey
11-12-11, 12:51
I haven't written for awhile - though do know I always have the same issue! My concern has always been gynae cancers for the last few years - with CBT and medication I am actually a lot better, in fact I really do almost feel normal but still the remaining niggling thoughts!
Whilst my periods are now 'normal' again I did have some minor spotting for a few months, though this last month nothing. I of course am worried re cervical C - though smear (2 years) ago and all other tests normal. My Dr who is nice but obv getting annoyed basically said she could no longer reassure me and I had to get over it. I actually felt ok re that but at the last minutes she said she would send me for a coloscopy (only test I haven't had!) and then that must be an end to it!
I've waited weeks and it is now due on 19th Dec. I have been so calm actually - though still fear sex in case I bleed. I know I have to take this final leap to really get back to 'normal' but is scary!
This time last year was when my anxiety was at its worse - cried, couldn't get out of bed and ruined xmas for me and family! I am so determined not to do that again so I think I am on tenderhooks now so nothing comes along to ruin my good mood!
As those with HA knows - our bodies are little (swear words!!) at scaring us even when nothing is wrong ..!
I'm trying not to reassurance seek anymore as I know nobody can know what is going to happen - but would still welcome and kind words of wisdom re the test and also anyone who has had one not related to smear issues - I don't fear tests (I have no shames at undressing to be tested after so many!!) - just the results!
Although this may seem negative I would like to say CBT and meds has helped me to so much - my HA hasn't gone, I still have thoughts but I am 90% better than this time last year so anyone who is suffering it really can get better x
Whilst my periods are now 'normal' again I did have some minor spotting for a few months, though this last month nothing. I of course am worried re cervical C - though smear (2 years) ago and all other tests normal. My Dr who is nice but obv getting annoyed basically said she could no longer reassure me and I had to get over it. I actually felt ok re that but at the last minutes she said she would send me for a coloscopy (only test I haven't had!) and then that must be an end to it!
I've waited weeks and it is now due on 19th Dec. I have been so calm actually - though still fear sex in case I bleed. I know I have to take this final leap to really get back to 'normal' but is scary!
This time last year was when my anxiety was at its worse - cried, couldn't get out of bed and ruined xmas for me and family! I am so determined not to do that again so I think I am on tenderhooks now so nothing comes along to ruin my good mood!
As those with HA knows - our bodies are little (swear words!!) at scaring us even when nothing is wrong ..!
I'm trying not to reassurance seek anymore as I know nobody can know what is going to happen - but would still welcome and kind words of wisdom re the test and also anyone who has had one not related to smear issues - I don't fear tests (I have no shames at undressing to be tested after so many!!) - just the results!
Although this may seem negative I would like to say CBT and meds has helped me to so much - my HA hasn't gone, I still have thoughts but I am 90% better than this time last year so anyone who is suffering it really can get better x