hungrycaterpillar
21-12-11, 17:58
Hi all.
A week ago, I woke up and suddenly felt completely overwhelmed by EVERYTHING. Work, Christmas, bills etc.
I ended up having a panic attack before work, got myself to work, full of anxiety, phoned my Dad and cried for about an hour. I managed to calm down throughout the day, however, the next morning pretty much the same thing happened, and again the next day... And I ended up coming home after less than an hour at work.
I then had 3 days off (scheduled) and worked from home on Monday which was ok. During these 3 days I was extremely anxious. I managed to see my Dr who signed me off, however, I am self employed and part own a business so it's not as easy as it seems!!!
In my job I have clients and am usually with a client for 1-1.30 hours... Which means that once I am with them I can't just walk away.
I managed to go to work yesterday, but on the way there actually considered crashing my car so that I would have a physical reason not to go.
I again got through the day but I was SO anxious all day it was awful.
I took today off. Felt guilty all day. I had just started to relax a tiny bit until I got a text pressurising me to come in tomorrow. Now I feel sick and panicky and very worried.
I seem to have got stuck in this anxious circle, and I don't know how long it is going to last. I've had episodes in the past, ranging from 6 months to 2 weeks... And I know that 'This too shall pass' and that I have to just ride it out BUT I feel SO horrific.
I am taking Citalopram again after quitting it about 8 weeks ago (I think this is what has started all this) and I am taking 40mg Propanolol 3 times a day. I am going to be getting CBT in the New Year but they can't get me in before Christmas.
I don't know what to do. I feel guilty for not being at work but then I feel panicky when I am at work.
A week ago, I woke up and suddenly felt completely overwhelmed by EVERYTHING. Work, Christmas, bills etc.
I ended up having a panic attack before work, got myself to work, full of anxiety, phoned my Dad and cried for about an hour. I managed to calm down throughout the day, however, the next morning pretty much the same thing happened, and again the next day... And I ended up coming home after less than an hour at work.
I then had 3 days off (scheduled) and worked from home on Monday which was ok. During these 3 days I was extremely anxious. I managed to see my Dr who signed me off, however, I am self employed and part own a business so it's not as easy as it seems!!!
In my job I have clients and am usually with a client for 1-1.30 hours... Which means that once I am with them I can't just walk away.
I managed to go to work yesterday, but on the way there actually considered crashing my car so that I would have a physical reason not to go.
I again got through the day but I was SO anxious all day it was awful.
I took today off. Felt guilty all day. I had just started to relax a tiny bit until I got a text pressurising me to come in tomorrow. Now I feel sick and panicky and very worried.
I seem to have got stuck in this anxious circle, and I don't know how long it is going to last. I've had episodes in the past, ranging from 6 months to 2 weeks... And I know that 'This too shall pass' and that I have to just ride it out BUT I feel SO horrific.
I am taking Citalopram again after quitting it about 8 weeks ago (I think this is what has started all this) and I am taking 40mg Propanolol 3 times a day. I am going to be getting CBT in the New Year but they can't get me in before Christmas.
I don't know what to do. I feel guilty for not being at work but then I feel panicky when I am at work.