.Poppy.
25-12-11, 04:59
I'm just curious if this happens to anyone else. It happens to me very frequently; it's more noticeable when I'm feeling like I'm in a slump (for me, "slumps" can last anywhere from a couple of days to a few weeks).
Anyway - I will do the simplest of things and just feel....sad. It's a very specific kind of sad. For example, I will go to a store and remember being there with my mother, father, friend, etc. I will then just start to feel really sorry for myself - I actually MISS myself, or rather, the version of myself that I was at that time.
I don't know if that makes any sense at all - I've had anxiety problems for years but I always think of that past version of myself as having it easier than the current version of me does. So I'll go to the park (another example), remember being there with my friends in high school, and think to myself "I didn't know how good I had it...I didn't know that I'd be blindsighted by college issues, work issues, friend issues, health anxiety, etc. etc." and then I will just feel really far down in the dumps, really sad, and really sorry for myself.
I'll also have times where I think to myself "just two weeks ago I was much happier, so hopeful, optimistic - and then _______ had to happen and now look where I am. Stuck, sad, alone, terrified. Why me?" and again, feeling sorry for myself.
Anyone else have something similar? Is this common at all or is my thought process just really messed up?
Anyway - I will do the simplest of things and just feel....sad. It's a very specific kind of sad. For example, I will go to a store and remember being there with my mother, father, friend, etc. I will then just start to feel really sorry for myself - I actually MISS myself, or rather, the version of myself that I was at that time.
I don't know if that makes any sense at all - I've had anxiety problems for years but I always think of that past version of myself as having it easier than the current version of me does. So I'll go to the park (another example), remember being there with my friends in high school, and think to myself "I didn't know how good I had it...I didn't know that I'd be blindsighted by college issues, work issues, friend issues, health anxiety, etc. etc." and then I will just feel really far down in the dumps, really sad, and really sorry for myself.
I'll also have times where I think to myself "just two weeks ago I was much happier, so hopeful, optimistic - and then _______ had to happen and now look where I am. Stuck, sad, alone, terrified. Why me?" and again, feeling sorry for myself.
Anyone else have something similar? Is this common at all or is my thought process just really messed up?