theharvestmouse
30-12-11, 21:11
I don't know how this happened, its because my medication ran out 2 days after christmas and I didn't have a chance to order my prescription. Then today I went to the dispensary and handed the bit of paper I thought was normal and the woman said whats this? I said I'm here to get my repeat prescription and she said have I ordered it and said its the wrong bit of paper.
By now I was getting anxious because there were other people in there, but I was confused because normally I just hand the bit of paper and they do it in 5 or 10 minutes and give it to me there and then and this woman starts saying that I will have to wait until next Thursday before I can get it. Then she said if its urgent I could go in the doctors but I was in a mad rush and had a train to catch so I couldn't.
Now I've been 3 days without taking Citalopram and I feel awful (not sure if its coming off it or me panicking). Now I won;t be able to get it until next Thursday because of the stupid bank holiday which I could not give a sh*t about. I feel awful, today I had to go to London with my parents and I've been feeling depressed and having lots of suicidal thoughts.
Im really worried now, but what a stupid service the NHS is, I suffer from anxiety and why the hell do they make it so confusing to get the medication, and why did that stupid woman start putting me on the spot in front of those people. I'm so fed up, I'm seriously panicking now because I have my CBT next week and what will she say when I tell her whats happened.
Its the same old me, I didn't do enough to get my medication and now its a life and death situation, instead I worried about going to visit a relative in London who does not know how bad I am.
stupid NHS, is it any wonder loads of people kill themselves if this is the service for people with anxiety and depression.
By now I was getting anxious because there were other people in there, but I was confused because normally I just hand the bit of paper and they do it in 5 or 10 minutes and give it to me there and then and this woman starts saying that I will have to wait until next Thursday before I can get it. Then she said if its urgent I could go in the doctors but I was in a mad rush and had a train to catch so I couldn't.
Now I've been 3 days without taking Citalopram and I feel awful (not sure if its coming off it or me panicking). Now I won;t be able to get it until next Thursday because of the stupid bank holiday which I could not give a sh*t about. I feel awful, today I had to go to London with my parents and I've been feeling depressed and having lots of suicidal thoughts.
Im really worried now, but what a stupid service the NHS is, I suffer from anxiety and why the hell do they make it so confusing to get the medication, and why did that stupid woman start putting me on the spot in front of those people. I'm so fed up, I'm seriously panicking now because I have my CBT next week and what will she say when I tell her whats happened.
Its the same old me, I didn't do enough to get my medication and now its a life and death situation, instead I worried about going to visit a relative in London who does not know how bad I am.
stupid NHS, is it any wonder loads of people kill themselves if this is the service for people with anxiety and depression.