What is this!?!?

[Paniclissx]

Please help Im not sure if this is depersonalisation/ derealisation.. I think I'm probably going crazy..

-I feel as if I'm not here
- I feel as if the world is not real and it's just one big dream or hallucination
- I question things like how the world works and how we got here etc..
- everything feels weird and I don't feel connected
- I don't feel like I'm controlling my body because I feel like a different person
- I feel as I I'm a robot
- I question the meaning of life


There's more but I just can't describe how weird and detatched I'm feeling! I don't feel connected to the world at all, I feel as if I'm watching it but not taking part in it.. I feel weird about everything!

It makes me have intrusive thoughts of killing myself which I don't want to do! I just want to escape these feelings!

What is this? And does anyone else get it? Xxi feel crazy!

[chl_hobbs]

I know how u feel to some extent, it does get so bad because your mind is working overtime and you just crave a break to the extent where you want some 'time off' from it. I always think i want to just switch off, not do any harm to myself (i have a little girl and couldnt do that to her) but its weird. I keep saying 'i cant cope anymore' which causes alarm bells in everyone but what i mean is i need someone to take me out of it. I question everything too...a 'what if' sort of thing. Its hell. Wish i was really thick so i had no idea about anything and no worries!x

[Paniclissx]

It's horrible! I feel completely crazy, I feel like I'm I'm a dream! :( xx

[Carys]

'This' is a deep and severe anxiety state. They are the same symptoms that you have described to me for a couple of weeks now, and the same symptoms as I am others before you have had. I'm not saying it isn't a real feeling, it is..............(taken from Wiki)

Depersonalization (or depersonalisation) is an anomaly of the mechanism by which an individual has self-awareness. It is a feeling of watching oneself act, while having no control over a situation.[1] (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Depersonalization#cite_note-DSM-IV-TR-0) Sufferers feel they have changed, and the world has become less real, vague, dreamlike, or lacking in significance. It can be a disturbing experience, since many feel that, indeed, they are living in a "dream". Though degrees of depersonalization and derealization (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Derealization) can happen to anyone who is subject to temporary anxiety/stress, chronic depersonalization is more related to individuals who have experienced a severe trauma (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psychological_trauma) or prolonged stress/anxiety.Depersonalization is the third most common psychological symptom, after feelings of anxiety (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anxiety) and feelings of depression (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Depression_%28mood%29).[6] (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Depersonalization#cite_note-Simeon_04-5) Depersonalization is a symptom of anxiety disorders, such as panic disorder (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Panic_disorder).[ (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Depersonalization#cite_note-6)

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Make it a goal today, to get hold of some books that will help you.

Something in your hand that you can hold and refer to as many times in the day as you need, to reassure yourself.

I think the Claire Weekes books could really help you (they are the only ones I know from years ago, but others may be able to recommend other more recent authors ?)

She describes so much of what you are talking about. Sitting and reading about how to overcome your severe anxiety would be a really positive step today.

Try it ?

[Paniclissx]

I'm ordering a book today called 'overcoming depersonalisation and derealisation' it's just hard to do anything when nothing feels real and you feel as if you are about to float off te planet! I don't even feel like me anymore! Almost like I've lost myself :( I feel a bit more normal and a bit better than yesterday but I still feel weird :/ I reluctantly took my second dose of Sertraline.. So I'll see how I go with that. It just feels like I will feel like this forever, that nothing will feel real forever :( I just can't connect to anything :( xx

[f0rest]

sounds like derealisation and a bit of depersonalisation, just relax in time it will pass :D its horrible but just hang on and do the things u love and youll soon feel better.

[Paniclissx]

I feel a bit more 'normal' now, I'm even freaking out about that though! I think my tablets are kicking in already! Cause I think the horrible thoughts but they don't panic me as much, I just feel so so sick and exhausted! Xx