Aurocard
12-01-12, 15:07
Hokay so...
I've been having panic attacks that have steadily been getting worse. I can't exactly say when they all started, but I can remember one that sticks out in my mind. It was shortly after a party I went to, two days after I was getting ready for work, when I started toward the bus stop and all the sudden I just...couldn't move. I felt ill, throat closed up, and light headed, kept breathing funny. The thought of getting on the bus while I was feeling like this just made me scared and I turned around and went back to the flat. I ended up getting a ride from my friend.
About a few months later, I was at a wedding, when the reception ended we were driving on the way home and suddently I felt ill. I raced upstairs, went to the restroom...but nothing happened. I had eaten before so I was expecting to just vomit it all up but, nothing happened. I spent the next hour pacing back and forth in the flat of my friend until my heart rate subsided.
Nothing happened for about...six months after, then I moved here to Bristol. For the first two months, things were going great. I'm getting married (there was no Engaged option in the profile bit XD) in about 16 days, I'm going out on a honeymoon to the canary isles, nothing could be better....
....Then, six weeks ago, I started to have regular panic attacks. I'd get nervous, nauseated, but only at night. If we were to go shopping during the day, I'd be fine. No problem. But the minute I'm told we're going somewhere at night, I imediately feel a sense of dread, and everything locks up. It scares me
Well, after a few doctors visits, I come to find that I might have gallstones and that my liver is indeed inflamed, so I started to attribute my panic to that, that my body is just on overdrive telling me that something is wrong.
I went on meds for my pains in my gallbladder and my nauseated feelings, and that worked for a while...until last night, as I posted in my intro thread. That scared me so bad, I didn't know what to do.
I've never been like this before, never had problems going out or anything...now I have this lingering thought in the back of my head that I'm going to vomit everywhere the moment I set foot out of the house.
This is bad considering I'm going to be on my honeymoon....and I'm flying somewhere ....and yeah.
I don't want to take medication, I believe I can get over this the more I understand about it. It's like facing the fear I had of jumping off a diving board. I just had to do it and understand that I would be okay.
I'd rather talk myself down then take meds.
So yeah....that's my story o.o
Sorry it was so long lol.
-Auro
I've been having panic attacks that have steadily been getting worse. I can't exactly say when they all started, but I can remember one that sticks out in my mind. It was shortly after a party I went to, two days after I was getting ready for work, when I started toward the bus stop and all the sudden I just...couldn't move. I felt ill, throat closed up, and light headed, kept breathing funny. The thought of getting on the bus while I was feeling like this just made me scared and I turned around and went back to the flat. I ended up getting a ride from my friend.
About a few months later, I was at a wedding, when the reception ended we were driving on the way home and suddently I felt ill. I raced upstairs, went to the restroom...but nothing happened. I had eaten before so I was expecting to just vomit it all up but, nothing happened. I spent the next hour pacing back and forth in the flat of my friend until my heart rate subsided.
Nothing happened for about...six months after, then I moved here to Bristol. For the first two months, things were going great. I'm getting married (there was no Engaged option in the profile bit XD) in about 16 days, I'm going out on a honeymoon to the canary isles, nothing could be better....
....Then, six weeks ago, I started to have regular panic attacks. I'd get nervous, nauseated, but only at night. If we were to go shopping during the day, I'd be fine. No problem. But the minute I'm told we're going somewhere at night, I imediately feel a sense of dread, and everything locks up. It scares me
Well, after a few doctors visits, I come to find that I might have gallstones and that my liver is indeed inflamed, so I started to attribute my panic to that, that my body is just on overdrive telling me that something is wrong.
I went on meds for my pains in my gallbladder and my nauseated feelings, and that worked for a while...until last night, as I posted in my intro thread. That scared me so bad, I didn't know what to do.
I've never been like this before, never had problems going out or anything...now I have this lingering thought in the back of my head that I'm going to vomit everywhere the moment I set foot out of the house.
This is bad considering I'm going to be on my honeymoon....and I'm flying somewhere ....and yeah.
I don't want to take medication, I believe I can get over this the more I understand about it. It's like facing the fear I had of jumping off a diving board. I just had to do it and understand that I would be okay.
I'd rather talk myself down then take meds.
So yeah....that's my story o.o
Sorry it was so long lol.
-Auro