Cadchr
11-06-06, 15:48
Okay, so here is my story -
I'm a single mother of two teenage boys. For all of my 34 years of life I have been a "type A" personality. Very career oriented, focused, driven and would even say I was a "work-a-holic". It sounds crazy but after the 9/11 events I began to feel depressed all of the time. Although I don't live in the Northeast USA, I once lived there and felt a connection and was literally obsessed with the media coverage. After a year of this obsession, and not sleeping well (due to nightmares), my doctor put me on a low dose of prozac. Everything was fine. Until about a year ago.
A year ago, I walked out on my high paying job (where I worked 80 hrs a week) and began, immediately, having anxiety. I was worried about how I was going to support my kids, I felt useless as a human being and just didn't want to live anymore because I was disappointed in myself for not being able to handle the stress of my job anymore.
Following my departure from the job I so loved (but also hated because of the stress level), my ex-employer hit me with legal issues and wouldn't leave me alone. Thus, I began having anxiety attacks.
My doctor then prescribed a low dose of xanax to take once a day, in the evening and then I take another when I actually have an attack.
The bottom line for me is that I find the xanax makes me not care about stuff. Even writing this email is frustrating me because I don't care and find I am even irritated that I'm making myself do it. Because I now feel like this, I want to come off of the xanax but am afraid to ask my doctor to weane me from it for fear the anxiety and paranoia will come back.
Does anyone notice they feel irritated when they take xanax? Any suggestions for weaning?
I'm a single mother of two teenage boys. For all of my 34 years of life I have been a "type A" personality. Very career oriented, focused, driven and would even say I was a "work-a-holic". It sounds crazy but after the 9/11 events I began to feel depressed all of the time. Although I don't live in the Northeast USA, I once lived there and felt a connection and was literally obsessed with the media coverage. After a year of this obsession, and not sleeping well (due to nightmares), my doctor put me on a low dose of prozac. Everything was fine. Until about a year ago.
A year ago, I walked out on my high paying job (where I worked 80 hrs a week) and began, immediately, having anxiety. I was worried about how I was going to support my kids, I felt useless as a human being and just didn't want to live anymore because I was disappointed in myself for not being able to handle the stress of my job anymore.
Following my departure from the job I so loved (but also hated because of the stress level), my ex-employer hit me with legal issues and wouldn't leave me alone. Thus, I began having anxiety attacks.
My doctor then prescribed a low dose of xanax to take once a day, in the evening and then I take another when I actually have an attack.
The bottom line for me is that I find the xanax makes me not care about stuff. Even writing this email is frustrating me because I don't care and find I am even irritated that I'm making myself do it. Because I now feel like this, I want to come off of the xanax but am afraid to ask my doctor to weane me from it for fear the anxiety and paranoia will come back.
Does anyone notice they feel irritated when they take xanax? Any suggestions for weaning?