Nahdia
13-01-12, 17:21
I have suffered from obsessive thoughts since I was 18 (now 37 years old), this manifests itself mainly in HA.
Like a lot of you guys on here, I have spent an inordinate amount of time, googling, trying to decipher important medical reports trying to work out if the 1 in a billion chance of a disease could be me.
Previously, I would go through a phase, once my particular health anxiety had passed, things would revert back to normal. Last month I convinced myself that I had a brain tumor of MS, unexplained headaches and weird tingling sensations (all classic sign of anxiety), back and forth to the doctors. This was of course made worse when I tried to sleep and couldn't. The anxiety about having a tumor became an anxiety about insomnia. I convinced myself that I couldnt sleep and would never be able to sleep. I even managed to convince myself, that I had rare form of insomnia that is fatal, only 5 documented cases out of the 6.8billion people in the world. So I would have to be the 1 in a 762,000 million person to get this disease.
Having convinced myself that this even with my wildest health fantasy that on extremely unlikely, I have started to think I may have vcjd (symptoms start with you guessed it anxiety and depression and INSOMNIA). I am now thanks to google a specialist on VCJD.
I am on MEDs which are helping me sleep better, not all nights,not helped by the fact that in the last two days I have managed to contract the norovirus from my brother (thank god we all have it at home, otherwise I could see where that train of thought was going to end up). I just wish I could get back in to the a better sleep pattern, which will give me the confidence to think more coherently.
I have signed up for CBT, waiting to hear when I can start.
In the meantime, any advice you helpful forum members can give me on how I can relax, and stop with the obsessive thoughts - I am sure once that is under control other things will fall in to place.
Thanks in advance
Nahdia
Like a lot of you guys on here, I have spent an inordinate amount of time, googling, trying to decipher important medical reports trying to work out if the 1 in a billion chance of a disease could be me.
Previously, I would go through a phase, once my particular health anxiety had passed, things would revert back to normal. Last month I convinced myself that I had a brain tumor of MS, unexplained headaches and weird tingling sensations (all classic sign of anxiety), back and forth to the doctors. This was of course made worse when I tried to sleep and couldn't. The anxiety about having a tumor became an anxiety about insomnia. I convinced myself that I couldnt sleep and would never be able to sleep. I even managed to convince myself, that I had rare form of insomnia that is fatal, only 5 documented cases out of the 6.8billion people in the world. So I would have to be the 1 in a 762,000 million person to get this disease.
Having convinced myself that this even with my wildest health fantasy that on extremely unlikely, I have started to think I may have vcjd (symptoms start with you guessed it anxiety and depression and INSOMNIA). I am now thanks to google a specialist on VCJD.
I am on MEDs which are helping me sleep better, not all nights,not helped by the fact that in the last two days I have managed to contract the norovirus from my brother (thank god we all have it at home, otherwise I could see where that train of thought was going to end up). I just wish I could get back in to the a better sleep pattern, which will give me the confidence to think more coherently.
I have signed up for CBT, waiting to hear when I can start.
In the meantime, any advice you helpful forum members can give me on how I can relax, and stop with the obsessive thoughts - I am sure once that is under control other things will fall in to place.
Thanks in advance
Nahdia