milkcarton
19-01-12, 22:49
Hi All,
I'm in a mess at the moment. I was off sick for nearly 2 weeks after Christams and only returned to work on Monday. I've had a really stressful week at work and also outside of work.
I was sick with a virus but it started at work where I felt extremely dizzy (the worse that I have felt in a long time, like nearly passing out) and ever since then, even when I was home in bed, I felt so dizzy and off balance. The virus didn't help my anxiety and I ended up getting antibiotics for a sinus infection.
This sickness episode along with my anxiety has really affected me. When I get anxious I make myself dizzy and freaked out and always stay in the house or close to the house. I don't like going out far away or in a really busy environment. I also live in London, which I hate, and when I travelled back from the central office in town I ended up taking the wrong turn on Oxford Street and walked for, what seemed like, a mile to Tottenham Court Road Tube Station. When I went to the ticket barrier I felt so dizzy and anxious. I ended up telling a station worker who would not let me in the office to sit down and instead made me sit in a deserted kiosk. I felt so anxious and my boyfriend's Dad ended up saving the day and rescuing me. I haven't been to the Centre of London since and I am so scared to, my normal office is a short drive away which I go to at the moment. I hate being in London with agoraphobia, it's too big and busy and very difficult to find a safe place. I am from the country in northern ireland and I really wish I was home in a quieter surrounding with my family a phone call and drive away.
Am I just being petty? Is this all in my head and should I just get on with it? I have been in London for over 2 years and my anxiety has stopped me from going out to London and my boyfriend really wants to make the most out of being here before we move on. I just feel that I can't make the most of it here and want to give up and move away. I need help and advice from fellow sufferers :( I am making myself more depressed craving to go home when my boyfriend wants to make the most of it here. We're arguing lots at the moment about it. I've also had a 6 month stint of CBT at the beginning of last year and although it helped slightly, I still have my anxiety and dizziness.
I'm in a mess at the moment. I was off sick for nearly 2 weeks after Christams and only returned to work on Monday. I've had a really stressful week at work and also outside of work.
I was sick with a virus but it started at work where I felt extremely dizzy (the worse that I have felt in a long time, like nearly passing out) and ever since then, even when I was home in bed, I felt so dizzy and off balance. The virus didn't help my anxiety and I ended up getting antibiotics for a sinus infection.
This sickness episode along with my anxiety has really affected me. When I get anxious I make myself dizzy and freaked out and always stay in the house or close to the house. I don't like going out far away or in a really busy environment. I also live in London, which I hate, and when I travelled back from the central office in town I ended up taking the wrong turn on Oxford Street and walked for, what seemed like, a mile to Tottenham Court Road Tube Station. When I went to the ticket barrier I felt so dizzy and anxious. I ended up telling a station worker who would not let me in the office to sit down and instead made me sit in a deserted kiosk. I felt so anxious and my boyfriend's Dad ended up saving the day and rescuing me. I haven't been to the Centre of London since and I am so scared to, my normal office is a short drive away which I go to at the moment. I hate being in London with agoraphobia, it's too big and busy and very difficult to find a safe place. I am from the country in northern ireland and I really wish I was home in a quieter surrounding with my family a phone call and drive away.
Am I just being petty? Is this all in my head and should I just get on with it? I have been in London for over 2 years and my anxiety has stopped me from going out to London and my boyfriend really wants to make the most out of being here before we move on. I just feel that I can't make the most of it here and want to give up and move away. I need help and advice from fellow sufferers :( I am making myself more depressed craving to go home when my boyfriend wants to make the most of it here. We're arguing lots at the moment about it. I've also had a 6 month stint of CBT at the beginning of last year and although it helped slightly, I still have my anxiety and dizziness.