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20-01-12, 19:02
Hello all,
I'm new to this site and this is my first thread... although I've been reading about all your experiences I've been a bit shy about posting mine... I'll make a short version of the problem. I've got GAD and, despite my doctor's attempt, I've decided not to take the anti-d's... I have tried but failed 3 times... they made me sick, nervous, terribly depressed and suicidal, but I am not here to say that they don't work... I just find them hard to cope. So I'm trying lots of reading, exercise, St. John's Wort , Rescue Remedy and meditation... I bought a book on mindfulness with a 8 week program on meditation and I was doing really well up to week 3... during an evening meditation I had a major freak out!!! Terrible thoughts, I was convinced I was going mad and there were no reasons for me to try to get better because I never would:weep:
That night I couldn't sleep... I went to bed having major shakes (like my body was in shock) and I could not calm myself down... the next morning I was a wreck!! This was 4 weeks ago and since then I have been so scared of trying meditation again! It's so frustrating because I read that it really helps with anxiety and obsessive thinking but I'm stuck! Maybe it's not for me, I don't know... but I'm running out of options apart from the medication that my doctor insists:unsure:
Has anyone had a similar experience? Any advices please. Thank you for reading x
I'm new to this site and this is my first thread... although I've been reading about all your experiences I've been a bit shy about posting mine... I'll make a short version of the problem. I've got GAD and, despite my doctor's attempt, I've decided not to take the anti-d's... I have tried but failed 3 times... they made me sick, nervous, terribly depressed and suicidal, but I am not here to say that they don't work... I just find them hard to cope. So I'm trying lots of reading, exercise, St. John's Wort , Rescue Remedy and meditation... I bought a book on mindfulness with a 8 week program on meditation and I was doing really well up to week 3... during an evening meditation I had a major freak out!!! Terrible thoughts, I was convinced I was going mad and there were no reasons for me to try to get better because I never would:weep:
That night I couldn't sleep... I went to bed having major shakes (like my body was in shock) and I could not calm myself down... the next morning I was a wreck!! This was 4 weeks ago and since then I have been so scared of trying meditation again! It's so frustrating because I read that it really helps with anxiety and obsessive thinking but I'm stuck! Maybe it's not for me, I don't know... but I'm running out of options apart from the medication that my doctor insists:unsure:
Has anyone had a similar experience? Any advices please. Thank you for reading x