swgrl09
26-01-12, 03:57
I hate feeling normal one minute, having clarity and thinking "You know what, I am ok," and then an hour later freaking out about a tiny symptom that is 99% likely to be nothing. Why can't I accept that at 23 years old, keeping up with my scheduled doctors appointments, etc, that I should be just fine? Most people my age don't even go to the doctor.
I'm just tired of not living my life as well as I should. I don't want to regret being this way. My mom was a hypochondriac her whole life, and when she was diagnosed with an extremely rare cancer that ended up taking her life, she told me that it was not worth worrying so much because in the end we have so little control of what happens. There was nothing she could have done to prevent what happened to her.
When I am older I will surely look back and say, "Why did I worry so much then?" I just wish my emotional part could believe my logical part.
Sorry for the rant, I'm just very frustrated with myself.
I'm just tired of not living my life as well as I should. I don't want to regret being this way. My mom was a hypochondriac her whole life, and when she was diagnosed with an extremely rare cancer that ended up taking her life, she told me that it was not worth worrying so much because in the end we have so little control of what happens. There was nothing she could have done to prevent what happened to her.
When I am older I will surely look back and say, "Why did I worry so much then?" I just wish my emotional part could believe my logical part.
Sorry for the rant, I'm just very frustrated with myself.