Deb51967
28-01-12, 19:11
Sorry if this is a long post.... but here goes
It started 3 years ago when my son came home from Iraq having been injured in a bomb blast (Army, Paras). We got him through it, and it took 12 months of recovery, but he did and back to his regiment.
Then due to a very severe, quick illness, my mum was taken from us at the age of 64. (Too young). She was given between 4 hours and 4 days before she was taken. She lasted 19 hours.
My ex husband passed away last week after a battle with the dreaded C. We were still friends. When his illness was at its worst, I would go round and make sure he was okay, do his shopping etc.
I have been battling with anxiety and depression for a couple of years now, and the gp said that it is actually Post Traumatic Stress.
On Monday, it is my ex hubby's funeral. I don't think I can face it. My mum was cremated at the same place at the same time of day. I am still struggling with the day mum died, and keep re living the day. I am now re living every second and panicking more and more.
My Partner of 9 years is absolutely wonderful and is willing to come to the funeral with me to offer support. I really do want to go to show my respect to my ex. But I am re living every moment of my mum going away whom I was extremely close to and who I miss like mad.
This is gnawing away at me. Please help.
It started 3 years ago when my son came home from Iraq having been injured in a bomb blast (Army, Paras). We got him through it, and it took 12 months of recovery, but he did and back to his regiment.
Then due to a very severe, quick illness, my mum was taken from us at the age of 64. (Too young). She was given between 4 hours and 4 days before she was taken. She lasted 19 hours.
My ex husband passed away last week after a battle with the dreaded C. We were still friends. When his illness was at its worst, I would go round and make sure he was okay, do his shopping etc.
I have been battling with anxiety and depression for a couple of years now, and the gp said that it is actually Post Traumatic Stress.
On Monday, it is my ex hubby's funeral. I don't think I can face it. My mum was cremated at the same place at the same time of day. I am still struggling with the day mum died, and keep re living the day. I am now re living every second and panicking more and more.
My Partner of 9 years is absolutely wonderful and is willing to come to the funeral with me to offer support. I really do want to go to show my respect to my ex. But I am re living every moment of my mum going away whom I was extremely close to and who I miss like mad.
This is gnawing away at me. Please help.