AdamJLeigh
29-01-12, 00:03
WHY do I let this disease (anxiety, depression, etc.) hang onto me so tight?
WHY is it SO probable that I have a horrible disease when in all actuality what is wrong is completely related to anxiety?
WHY do I always start symptom searching at the drop of a hat... even when I feel fine?
Why do I allow health anxiety to take away valuable time I have with my friends and family?
WHY do I make my wife crazy with constant "do you think I am ok?" or "Should I be worried about this?" questions?
WHY does this happen to me when others lead a perfectly normal life?
WHY do I cause myself to be up half the night some nights by tossing and turning while wondering if I will wake up in the morning with a horrible disease?
WHY do I constantly believe that a minor symptom is the "beginning of the end"?
WHY? WHY? WHY???
It's because I have a health anxiety... and frankly, I can't always help it. Even with medication, therapy, help, etc... it doesn't always go away.
I am writing all of this tonight because for an hour, I have been symptom searching. I decided to come to the boards and try to get my mind off of my current "episode". My 18-month old daughter is dealing with a mild case of Roseola... and I have made myself convinced that I have a weakened immune system and I will catch it... :( I feel fine. I have no symptoms... I know in my heart that all is fine... but my head doesn't listen.
I also posted these thoughts because I wanted anyone else out there who feels the same way I do to know they are not alone. Sometimes HA sufferers just need to know they are not alone, and that becomes enough to get through the day.
Well... thanks for listening... and thanks for being here - everyone on these boards help!
-Adam
WHY is it SO probable that I have a horrible disease when in all actuality what is wrong is completely related to anxiety?
WHY do I always start symptom searching at the drop of a hat... even when I feel fine?
Why do I allow health anxiety to take away valuable time I have with my friends and family?
WHY do I make my wife crazy with constant "do you think I am ok?" or "Should I be worried about this?" questions?
WHY does this happen to me when others lead a perfectly normal life?
WHY do I cause myself to be up half the night some nights by tossing and turning while wondering if I will wake up in the morning with a horrible disease?
WHY do I constantly believe that a minor symptom is the "beginning of the end"?
WHY? WHY? WHY???
It's because I have a health anxiety... and frankly, I can't always help it. Even with medication, therapy, help, etc... it doesn't always go away.
I am writing all of this tonight because for an hour, I have been symptom searching. I decided to come to the boards and try to get my mind off of my current "episode". My 18-month old daughter is dealing with a mild case of Roseola... and I have made myself convinced that I have a weakened immune system and I will catch it... :( I feel fine. I have no symptoms... I know in my heart that all is fine... but my head doesn't listen.
I also posted these thoughts because I wanted anyone else out there who feels the same way I do to know they are not alone. Sometimes HA sufferers just need to know they are not alone, and that becomes enough to get through the day.
Well... thanks for listening... and thanks for being here - everyone on these boards help!
-Adam