Hears The Water
04-05-04, 03:58
Hi y'all! I know it has been quite a while since I posted here. I have missed everyone! I had been doing so much better. Since late Feb. I have done the following things that where scary to me:
I got my drivers licence (this involved having the instructer in the car with me and me touching the computer screen)
I assisted with a children's class at our home school co-op
I took on the chairman position for a major event for our co-op
I am physically touching money
I have gone shopping by myself
I have led a prayer in front of about 50 people
I got up in front of about 35 people to hand out awards
I have visited two different churches
I visited a Sr. art exhibit at our local college twice
I even faced one of my biggest fears and had my eyes examend and picked out new glasses.
So many new things. It seems like lately I have been doing a lot of running. I noticed the other day that it was like God had thrown some kind of "switch" in my head. I was simply not fearful. I think that this must be what it is like to be normal. I realy realy realy liked it! It made me feel almost high! I was all giddy. But now today, the "switch" was flipped back the other way. I feel more like I usted to. And I don't want to go back!!!!! I realy liked the way I felt. I think I may just be tired. I also noticed that I had gotten away from the things that helped me get well in the first place... coming here, breathing correctly, plenty of water, eating well and walking. Some of y'all that have been normal for a while, do you periodically have to battle the old way of thinking? Has anyone ever had the switch left permanatly to the good side? Any and all input would be appreceated! Thanks to all of you for being here.
God bles you and yours
Debbie
I got my drivers licence (this involved having the instructer in the car with me and me touching the computer screen)
I assisted with a children's class at our home school co-op
I took on the chairman position for a major event for our co-op
I am physically touching money
I have gone shopping by myself
I have led a prayer in front of about 50 people
I got up in front of about 35 people to hand out awards
I have visited two different churches
I visited a Sr. art exhibit at our local college twice
I even faced one of my biggest fears and had my eyes examend and picked out new glasses.
So many new things. It seems like lately I have been doing a lot of running. I noticed the other day that it was like God had thrown some kind of "switch" in my head. I was simply not fearful. I think that this must be what it is like to be normal. I realy realy realy liked it! It made me feel almost high! I was all giddy. But now today, the "switch" was flipped back the other way. I feel more like I usted to. And I don't want to go back!!!!! I realy liked the way I felt. I think I may just be tired. I also noticed that I had gotten away from the things that helped me get well in the first place... coming here, breathing correctly, plenty of water, eating well and walking. Some of y'all that have been normal for a while, do you periodically have to battle the old way of thinking? Has anyone ever had the switch left permanatly to the good side? Any and all input would be appreceated! Thanks to all of you for being here.
God bles you and yours
Debbie