sam66
31-01-12, 19:03
hi,
Im pretty new to this site and many of you dont know me well.
Im off work and have been for six months, Im under no therapy and stopped my meds due to anx just getting unbearable.
Weither Im agroaphobic, not sure on that one, my home is my safe place but I have lots off hassles lately, actually for a few years with people.
I really do struggle going out.
My neighbours son arrived on my doorstep last night, after a wait as I dont normally answer my door or phone.
Just out of prison, buying diazipam!
Home for me is where Im safe theres me and the mutt and thats how its been for months now.
He was straight out of prison, had no where to stay for the night, his mum wont take him, so I said ok, stay here, I cooked him a dinner he had a shower, Ive known this lad since he was six, his dad died while he was in prison, he's a heroin addict.
Now I have watched for most of my life a brother destroy himself with heroin, my son dealing cannabis from my home and gone thro the trauma of 'tuff love'.
But the lad had no where to go was cold and hungry so I said ok, stay in the spare room.
Goodness how much did that put my panic up, it wasnt in my normal coping stuff, but he stayed and I 'managed' just! but it really hit me how much panic has taken over
Im pretty new to this site and many of you dont know me well.
Im off work and have been for six months, Im under no therapy and stopped my meds due to anx just getting unbearable.
Weither Im agroaphobic, not sure on that one, my home is my safe place but I have lots off hassles lately, actually for a few years with people.
I really do struggle going out.
My neighbours son arrived on my doorstep last night, after a wait as I dont normally answer my door or phone.
Just out of prison, buying diazipam!
Home for me is where Im safe theres me and the mutt and thats how its been for months now.
He was straight out of prison, had no where to stay for the night, his mum wont take him, so I said ok, stay here, I cooked him a dinner he had a shower, Ive known this lad since he was six, his dad died while he was in prison, he's a heroin addict.
Now I have watched for most of my life a brother destroy himself with heroin, my son dealing cannabis from my home and gone thro the trauma of 'tuff love'.
But the lad had no where to go was cold and hungry so I said ok, stay in the spare room.
Goodness how much did that put my panic up, it wasnt in my normal coping stuff, but he stayed and I 'managed' just! but it really hit me how much panic has taken over