babycakes979
06-02-12, 15:00
Hi all im Emma , im a proud mum of 3 children(1 disabled) whom i raised by my self until i met my partner in 2010 .
I am type 2 diabetic and since i found out i was diabetic in 2007 my life has been a never ending panic attack ,i have high blood pressure too and i suffer with palpitations ,which i take meds for all 3 , slow release metformin , losartan bisoprolol
Some days i can cope with this awful feeling but most days its swallows me , i can be sitting at home feeling fine then the next minute i start to thing oh i havent had a palpitation yet , then off it goes i have one , then i worry my heart is beating too slow or fast , then i think omg im going to have a heart attack , im on my own what if , and im sure you all know it then runs through your head every worst thought ever .... I think my dying thing is related to my brother passing when he was 4 and i was 2 so i have carried that all my life , then i worry what if i die and i leave my children etc .I have been to the docs and they have referred me to the cardiologist and they have done stress tests ecgs u name it they have done it , i have been told there is NOTHING wrong with me , so if not why do i get palpitations , feel dizzy , rubbish every day . I hate feeling like this , i used to run around with my kids , go on the fairs rides , i used to be out going and fun and now im boring and dont do anything as it brings on feelings of palpitations and dizziness . i am a shadow of my former self . While i sit here writing this its hard to think this is really me , how did i get to be this person,I find i struggle to go shopping and be in a que , i cant get stuck in traffic , it all comes to the what happens if i cant get somewhere to get food , im diabetic , i need to eat , what if im stuck here too long etc , the ambulance cant get to me if i need one , then with all this snow i panicked what happens if i need to get help , it wont reach me , noone can get through the snow , god im waffling , sorry :weep:.
I think finding this site is a release of how crap i feel , maybe someone will be able to tell me it will be OK and im going to get through this one day .
i did go to the docs and they just prescribed me Prozac as they said i was depressed , that just made me feel like a zombie so i took myself off it after 6 months and im glad i did , it didn't make me feel better , worse in fact .
Im getting married in 11 weeks and 5 days and i don't want to be worrying and having a full blown panic attack in the church .
Someone please tell me im normal !!!!
I am type 2 diabetic and since i found out i was diabetic in 2007 my life has been a never ending panic attack ,i have high blood pressure too and i suffer with palpitations ,which i take meds for all 3 , slow release metformin , losartan bisoprolol
Some days i can cope with this awful feeling but most days its swallows me , i can be sitting at home feeling fine then the next minute i start to thing oh i havent had a palpitation yet , then off it goes i have one , then i worry my heart is beating too slow or fast , then i think omg im going to have a heart attack , im on my own what if , and im sure you all know it then runs through your head every worst thought ever .... I think my dying thing is related to my brother passing when he was 4 and i was 2 so i have carried that all my life , then i worry what if i die and i leave my children etc .I have been to the docs and they have referred me to the cardiologist and they have done stress tests ecgs u name it they have done it , i have been told there is NOTHING wrong with me , so if not why do i get palpitations , feel dizzy , rubbish every day . I hate feeling like this , i used to run around with my kids , go on the fairs rides , i used to be out going and fun and now im boring and dont do anything as it brings on feelings of palpitations and dizziness . i am a shadow of my former self . While i sit here writing this its hard to think this is really me , how did i get to be this person,I find i struggle to go shopping and be in a que , i cant get stuck in traffic , it all comes to the what happens if i cant get somewhere to get food , im diabetic , i need to eat , what if im stuck here too long etc , the ambulance cant get to me if i need one , then with all this snow i panicked what happens if i need to get help , it wont reach me , noone can get through the snow , god im waffling , sorry :weep:.
I think finding this site is a release of how crap i feel , maybe someone will be able to tell me it will be OK and im going to get through this one day .
i did go to the docs and they just prescribed me Prozac as they said i was depressed , that just made me feel like a zombie so i took myself off it after 6 months and im glad i did , it didn't make me feel better , worse in fact .
Im getting married in 11 weeks and 5 days and i don't want to be worrying and having a full blown panic attack in the church .
Someone please tell me im normal !!!!