Stormsky
07-02-12, 12:53
Not sure if im always testing my memory... im always trying to remember things, like dreams, conversations after they happen, and like if im thinking about something, i suddenly think 'how did i get to thinking that?' and try going back through my recent thoughts to find out how i came to thinking the last thought.... sometimes im talking to someone, and suddenly the conversation reminds me of a similar conversation in the past, and im trying to then remember what that was, which is impossible if it was something a long time ago !! all bizare i know!
went to bed feeling fine, woke up thinking what were the things that were bothering me yesterday......
guess its just over thinking my thinking !!!
GOT TO STOP it !!!!
Also washing up the other day, suddenly had a feeling of a childhood feeling when we used to watch a programme every sunday evening...always recalled it as a depressing programme... so then i had to search my memory to try and recall what programme it was!!! dont ask me how i did it, internet searching, and recalling the programme had the name GREEN in it... suddenly it came to me Anne of Greengables........
Another thing, happens when i post a letter, when ive walked away, i wonder if the letter went in or fell out again, and should i go back and check.... but I DONT go back, would freak me out more if i did... i just have to say of course you posted it, stop being stupid!!!
and of course the totally irrational thought that ive run someone over, when someone walks out in front of car and ive had to stop or swerve, i then get home thinking did i run them over!!! NO OF COURSE I DIDNT... ive read that alot get that irrational thought though...
Also the fear of getting better... when youve lived with anx so long, its scary to think of being better... strange i know, as its what we strive for ! if im feeling better, i start looking for my anx! sure enough you find it !
went to bed feeling fine, woke up thinking what were the things that were bothering me yesterday......
guess its just over thinking my thinking !!!
GOT TO STOP it !!!!
Also washing up the other day, suddenly had a feeling of a childhood feeling when we used to watch a programme every sunday evening...always recalled it as a depressing programme... so then i had to search my memory to try and recall what programme it was!!! dont ask me how i did it, internet searching, and recalling the programme had the name GREEN in it... suddenly it came to me Anne of Greengables........
Another thing, happens when i post a letter, when ive walked away, i wonder if the letter went in or fell out again, and should i go back and check.... but I DONT go back, would freak me out more if i did... i just have to say of course you posted it, stop being stupid!!!
and of course the totally irrational thought that ive run someone over, when someone walks out in front of car and ive had to stop or swerve, i then get home thinking did i run them over!!! NO OF COURSE I DIDNT... ive read that alot get that irrational thought though...
Also the fear of getting better... when youve lived with anx so long, its scary to think of being better... strange i know, as its what we strive for ! if im feeling better, i start looking for my anx! sure enough you find it !