W.I.F.T.S.
19-06-06, 11:59
I often find myself thinking 'Don't people realise that they're not guaranteed to get old, they could die any minute?' or 'Don't people realise that we're tiny little specks on this planet and there are thousands and thousands of feet of earth below our feet?'.
I think people must be ignorant or they must have chosen to block it out. I think about telling them and seeing if they react the same way that I do. I know really that they wouldn't though. I know that it's me that's hyper sensitive.
I think 'how did I used to get on with life?'. I used to just accept the ground beneath my feet and not think any more about it. I knew that people dug under ground and that trains run underground, but it just didn't cross my mind what was below that.
The same with my body. I used to just accept it. I'd think I could do with losing some weight around my belly, but I didn't used to think about my internal organs or what I'm made of or the fact that I'm a collection of atoms.
I didn't used to think much about the universe.
I didn't used to think much about reality or time or death.
It's hard for me, now that these things are going round in my head to imagine forgetting about them and just getting on with life again.
I suppose what happens is that as you relax you focus comes back to the here and now and what I'm doing is looking for danger because my alarm systems are going off and I need to find a threat to either fight or run away from.
At the moment I think about being on the planet and I think 'If I'm looking south, the whole world is actually below me and if gravity was suddenly switched off I'd fall all that way!' and that is the sort of thought that makes me feel panicky. How can I fight or run away from reality or earth?
Ships in harbour are safe..but that's not what ships were built for.
I think people must be ignorant or they must have chosen to block it out. I think about telling them and seeing if they react the same way that I do. I know really that they wouldn't though. I know that it's me that's hyper sensitive.
I think 'how did I used to get on with life?'. I used to just accept the ground beneath my feet and not think any more about it. I knew that people dug under ground and that trains run underground, but it just didn't cross my mind what was below that.
The same with my body. I used to just accept it. I'd think I could do with losing some weight around my belly, but I didn't used to think about my internal organs or what I'm made of or the fact that I'm a collection of atoms.
I didn't used to think much about the universe.
I didn't used to think much about reality or time or death.
It's hard for me, now that these things are going round in my head to imagine forgetting about them and just getting on with life again.
I suppose what happens is that as you relax you focus comes back to the here and now and what I'm doing is looking for danger because my alarm systems are going off and I need to find a threat to either fight or run away from.
At the moment I think about being on the planet and I think 'If I'm looking south, the whole world is actually below me and if gravity was suddenly switched off I'd fall all that way!' and that is the sort of thought that makes me feel panicky. How can I fight or run away from reality or earth?
Ships in harbour are safe..but that's not what ships were built for.