Dan21
19-06-06, 15:27
Hi All.
Well. I’m struggling. I mean really, really struggling. On top of having to deal with everything that has happened with Dad, I can feel my health anxiety starting to creep insidiously back into the frame. My lump in the throat is back and if I was scared when it originally appeared, I’m positively frantic, especially after everything that has happened over the last month.
How much can I take? I don’t feel like I’m doing so well, and when I look at it, I guess I have a fair amount of stress in my life right now. Hell, I have a lot of stress in my life. What’s more stressful than a parent dying?
I finish work on Friday as I’m returning to study in July. I have a week off starting next Monday.
My head is spinning. I was awake almost every hour last night and I can’t remember the last time I fell this low both physically and emotionally.
I’m also worried about my Mum who is beating herself up so much over Dads death. She feels in retrospect, that she could have been kinder and more affectionate to Dad over the years and especially over Dads few days. But believe me, she was (and is) an absolute angel.
I feel so out of alignment in just about every aspect of my life.
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I want to go up to my anxiety, smile, put my arm around it and say to it caringly, 'Hey! How are you? How's your day been?'
Then, just as its about to answer me, I wanna throw a sack over it and give it a hiding within an inch of its life.
That would be nice.
Well. I’m struggling. I mean really, really struggling. On top of having to deal with everything that has happened with Dad, I can feel my health anxiety starting to creep insidiously back into the frame. My lump in the throat is back and if I was scared when it originally appeared, I’m positively frantic, especially after everything that has happened over the last month.
How much can I take? I don’t feel like I’m doing so well, and when I look at it, I guess I have a fair amount of stress in my life right now. Hell, I have a lot of stress in my life. What’s more stressful than a parent dying?
I finish work on Friday as I’m returning to study in July. I have a week off starting next Monday.
My head is spinning. I was awake almost every hour last night and I can’t remember the last time I fell this low both physically and emotionally.
I’m also worried about my Mum who is beating herself up so much over Dads death. She feels in retrospect, that she could have been kinder and more affectionate to Dad over the years and especially over Dads few days. But believe me, she was (and is) an absolute angel.
I feel so out of alignment in just about every aspect of my life.
-----------------------------
I want to go up to my anxiety, smile, put my arm around it and say to it caringly, 'Hey! How are you? How's your day been?'
Then, just as its about to answer me, I wanna throw a sack over it and give it a hiding within an inch of its life.
That would be nice.