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13-02-12, 17:57
Hi guys...
So I thought I was SO much better...I had a very bad period of HA that started in September 2011 which ended up in me being put on Sertraline, being monitored by my doctor every week and referred for CBT. It was because I convinced myself I either had bowel or pancreatic cancer. I had blood test, an X Ray and an ultrasound. All clear.
I got pregnant in November 2011 which meant I had to come off my medication and although my anxiety remained it became focused on the baby and whether I would have a miscarriage. I had a number of panic attacks but actually began to feel like I was coping and I gave my HA little thought. I started only having to see my doctor on a monthly basis and she was really impressed!
So back to now...I've been gradually feeling more down to the point that this weekend I thought I could feel the old pains (put down to IBS when I first went to the docs) and this was followed by constipation. I totally understand that constipation is part and parcel of pregnancy but I'm not dealing with it well at all. I'm able to have a BM but have to strain every time and it's quite little and pellet-like, sometimes thin. So I've gone back to my bad habits of checking, googling and basically spending all day thinking about whether bowel cancer has been missed. Some of me must be better because I can acknowledge this is probably just pregnancy related but for the most part I can feel I'm on the same slippery slope.
I don't want this, especially now as it would be so bad for the baby. I want to enjoy this pregnancy and all I can think about is that I've got cancer.
This site saved my life last time, so I'm really hoping it can again!
Thanks guys x
So I thought I was SO much better...I had a very bad period of HA that started in September 2011 which ended up in me being put on Sertraline, being monitored by my doctor every week and referred for CBT. It was because I convinced myself I either had bowel or pancreatic cancer. I had blood test, an X Ray and an ultrasound. All clear.
I got pregnant in November 2011 which meant I had to come off my medication and although my anxiety remained it became focused on the baby and whether I would have a miscarriage. I had a number of panic attacks but actually began to feel like I was coping and I gave my HA little thought. I started only having to see my doctor on a monthly basis and she was really impressed!
So back to now...I've been gradually feeling more down to the point that this weekend I thought I could feel the old pains (put down to IBS when I first went to the docs) and this was followed by constipation. I totally understand that constipation is part and parcel of pregnancy but I'm not dealing with it well at all. I'm able to have a BM but have to strain every time and it's quite little and pellet-like, sometimes thin. So I've gone back to my bad habits of checking, googling and basically spending all day thinking about whether bowel cancer has been missed. Some of me must be better because I can acknowledge this is probably just pregnancy related but for the most part I can feel I'm on the same slippery slope.
I don't want this, especially now as it would be so bad for the baby. I want to enjoy this pregnancy and all I can think about is that I've got cancer.
This site saved my life last time, so I'm really hoping it can again!
Thanks guys x