Rosequartz
20-02-12, 19:58
Hi I'm 39 and divorced. Have so many issues I really don't know where to begin. Breakdown in 2006. on anti-d's since oct 2006, doc thinks I suffered with High anxiety levels back then and they started to get better.
Tried reducing anti d, and got down to a quarter of a tablet every couple of days was doing so well and then BANG May 2011 massive anxiety attacks not that I even new what they were and then finally found this site months ago and diagnosed myself with GAD went to doctors who said Yes you have GAD on propanolol and Diazipam, Diazipam when needed. Really don't like these dark dark moments, had a lot of rubbish in my life and it just keeps on coming and hitting me all the time. Pulled myself out of the depression (I couldn't do anything) read, tv just couldn't concentrate. I would just pace up and down.
Doc thinks not depressed anymore and am now reducing anti-d which I am happy to do but I don't understand these attacks. I don't want them I don't like them I don't like the dark place and thoughts so why are they happening. I am a positive person I am reading positive thinking books and so on. Has my nervous system had over load? what can I do to help myself? I have good motivation I fought the depression and I will fight this but I get really really scared. Things keep happening its as if I just get over one thing then the world throws something else at me what is that all about? please help.
Tried reducing anti d, and got down to a quarter of a tablet every couple of days was doing so well and then BANG May 2011 massive anxiety attacks not that I even new what they were and then finally found this site months ago and diagnosed myself with GAD went to doctors who said Yes you have GAD on propanolol and Diazipam, Diazipam when needed. Really don't like these dark dark moments, had a lot of rubbish in my life and it just keeps on coming and hitting me all the time. Pulled myself out of the depression (I couldn't do anything) read, tv just couldn't concentrate. I would just pace up and down.
Doc thinks not depressed anymore and am now reducing anti-d which I am happy to do but I don't understand these attacks. I don't want them I don't like them I don't like the dark place and thoughts so why are they happening. I am a positive person I am reading positive thinking books and so on. Has my nervous system had over load? what can I do to help myself? I have good motivation I fought the depression and I will fight this but I get really really scared. Things keep happening its as if I just get over one thing then the world throws something else at me what is that all about? please help.