macc noodle
22-02-12, 07:59
Well guys this morning, having suffered a complete meltdown over health worries over last 2 weeks and being due to get my blood test results back and also having the night from hell, I sat at my computer and started typing in my symptoms.
God Almighty it appears that there can only be one outcome of how I feel right now and that is a Doomsday scenario.
However, I appear to have had a lightbulb moment and just wanted to share it with you all.
Hell yes, I actually feel rather unwell and I do appear to have symptoms that would indicate that some investigation and treatment may be required and how do I feel about this???
Truth : terrified because I do hate the docs and hospitals but, well actually I feel really rather calm as opposed to my usual headless chicken act that I perform.
And I am wondering is this simply because I know in my heart of hearts (as opposed to the depths of my wonderfully imaginative mind) that I need to get it sorted once and for all and that I do trust my doctors?
All I can say is that I think that I can stand no more of this self induced stress as a part of my health anxiety and something has got to give - so now I have had extensive blood tests and will get the results Friday and I will sit with my GP and have a good discussion about my symptoms and see what her opinion is on whether or not I need to have any further investigations.
It is hard enough being a perimenopausal woman with all the changes that go with it and the confusion it causes me in terms of perspective (ie., what is a clinical symptom or not) and this blessed HA that I cling onto only muddies the waters in my mind regarding my health (or lack thereof).
So, I am packing my symptoms into a box marked "Not wanted any longer" taking them to the doctor and seeing what she has to say - I am resolved that I shall accept her prognosis and the test results and that I shall get on with my life.
Enough is enough :D
God Almighty it appears that there can only be one outcome of how I feel right now and that is a Doomsday scenario.
However, I appear to have had a lightbulb moment and just wanted to share it with you all.
Hell yes, I actually feel rather unwell and I do appear to have symptoms that would indicate that some investigation and treatment may be required and how do I feel about this???
Truth : terrified because I do hate the docs and hospitals but, well actually I feel really rather calm as opposed to my usual headless chicken act that I perform.
And I am wondering is this simply because I know in my heart of hearts (as opposed to the depths of my wonderfully imaginative mind) that I need to get it sorted once and for all and that I do trust my doctors?
All I can say is that I think that I can stand no more of this self induced stress as a part of my health anxiety and something has got to give - so now I have had extensive blood tests and will get the results Friday and I will sit with my GP and have a good discussion about my symptoms and see what her opinion is on whether or not I need to have any further investigations.
It is hard enough being a perimenopausal woman with all the changes that go with it and the confusion it causes me in terms of perspective (ie., what is a clinical symptom or not) and this blessed HA that I cling onto only muddies the waters in my mind regarding my health (or lack thereof).
So, I am packing my symptoms into a box marked "Not wanted any longer" taking them to the doctor and seeing what she has to say - I am resolved that I shall accept her prognosis and the test results and that I shall get on with my life.
Enough is enough :D