Coni
23-06-06, 07:28
Hi everyone,
I'm going on holiday to Spain early on Sunday (Saturday night really) and really I dont know why I bother booking holidays. I've managed to keep a lid on things but now everythings threatening to spill over. The 'what ifs' are here with a vengeance.
What if I forget something really important (not packed yet)? what if I've read the tickets wrong and we miss the flight, maybe theres something wrong with the passports and they wont let us board, what if someone gets ill (hubbys been not well recently), what if the house gets burgled while we're away, dog dies? in-laws die? hotels lost the booking? hotels horrible?plane crash? hijacked by terrorists? luggage lost? money stolen? plane crash and terrorists again?
God I know I'm crazy and these thoughts are crazy but this is just an
example of whats whirling around my head. I've got so much to do and think about and I dont feel in control at all. I cant let my husband or any of the kids do anything cos I'm woriied they'll forget something so I'm responsible for all 5 of us.
I've got to work today and thats really busy too and I need to try and be organised so I can hand over important stuff to a colleague while I'm away and I'm nowhere near ready to do that. And to top it off I've got an interview for a new job when I come back (which should be good as I hate my job) except its first thing in the morning after we get home and I've to do a Presentation!!!! My worst nightmare anyway but how on earth can I prepare when I'm away and I only found out yesterday evening??? And I cant pull out cos I might never get another chance but I'm sure I'll mess it up and never get another chance anyway! And I SO need to get another job.
Oh god I thought holidays were meant to be fun and relaxing....I feel like cancelling the whole thing!
I know I'm rambling, but my adrenaline is pumping big style, so much that I have a woolly head now and cant think clearly. Any tips please? Can I use rescue remedy with antidepressants?
Coni X
I'm going on holiday to Spain early on Sunday (Saturday night really) and really I dont know why I bother booking holidays. I've managed to keep a lid on things but now everythings threatening to spill over. The 'what ifs' are here with a vengeance.
What if I forget something really important (not packed yet)? what if I've read the tickets wrong and we miss the flight, maybe theres something wrong with the passports and they wont let us board, what if someone gets ill (hubbys been not well recently), what if the house gets burgled while we're away, dog dies? in-laws die? hotels lost the booking? hotels horrible?plane crash? hijacked by terrorists? luggage lost? money stolen? plane crash and terrorists again?
God I know I'm crazy and these thoughts are crazy but this is just an
example of whats whirling around my head. I've got so much to do and think about and I dont feel in control at all. I cant let my husband or any of the kids do anything cos I'm woriied they'll forget something so I'm responsible for all 5 of us.
I've got to work today and thats really busy too and I need to try and be organised so I can hand over important stuff to a colleague while I'm away and I'm nowhere near ready to do that. And to top it off I've got an interview for a new job when I come back (which should be good as I hate my job) except its first thing in the morning after we get home and I've to do a Presentation!!!! My worst nightmare anyway but how on earth can I prepare when I'm away and I only found out yesterday evening??? And I cant pull out cos I might never get another chance but I'm sure I'll mess it up and never get another chance anyway! And I SO need to get another job.
Oh god I thought holidays were meant to be fun and relaxing....I feel like cancelling the whole thing!
I know I'm rambling, but my adrenaline is pumping big style, so much that I have a woolly head now and cant think clearly. Any tips please? Can I use rescue remedy with antidepressants?
Coni X