helpmeimstuck
27-02-12, 10:05
Well, here's my story.
Ok here goes...
I'm a 14 year old boy. Growing up i had a horrible, controlling, violent father. My mum left him when i was 12. Due to the stress he put on me nearly my whole life, i have severe depression, anxiety and worrying problems. I've been put on prozac and zoloft, they do nothing. I drink, occasionally i drop acid or smoke pot to numb the pain
I've always had problems socially. Everyone i know seems to think im alright at first, but something happens often not my fault and they just hate me and think im weird, spreading it around them. I've been at my new school for 3 weeks but a stupid mistake happened today when i accidentally let my knowledge on sex & drugs (some people were talking about it on fb) slip out. I'm an extravagant guy and i just said too much. now they think im weird, seedy, fail, tryhard, whatever... im gonna get hell for it at school tomorrow.
It's hard enough hating myself when everyone else seems to hate me too.... ive already got cutting and burn marks on my arm, carvings of 'why' and a satanic pentagram in my leg... i dont want to add to them but i dont know what else to do.
I care so much about what people think of me and i get anxious, stressed nervous around people because of it. This has a major impact on my life. I hate myself so much right now and i'm so pissed off that i had a new start at a new school and i just went and ****ed it up.
My life has lost its purpose. Everything as turned to crap. I feel so low its unimaginable. I cant take this pain anymore. I cry myself to sleep every night. I always wanted someone to love but ive only had my heart torn apart, over and over again.
Help. Please. If anyone has any advice i would be so grateful. I just dont know what to do anymore. I see no way out.
here's my leg: minus(dot)com(forwardslash)mLAAzP1QH#
Ok here goes...
I'm a 14 year old boy. Growing up i had a horrible, controlling, violent father. My mum left him when i was 12. Due to the stress he put on me nearly my whole life, i have severe depression, anxiety and worrying problems. I've been put on prozac and zoloft, they do nothing. I drink, occasionally i drop acid or smoke pot to numb the pain
I've always had problems socially. Everyone i know seems to think im alright at first, but something happens often not my fault and they just hate me and think im weird, spreading it around them. I've been at my new school for 3 weeks but a stupid mistake happened today when i accidentally let my knowledge on sex & drugs (some people were talking about it on fb) slip out. I'm an extravagant guy and i just said too much. now they think im weird, seedy, fail, tryhard, whatever... im gonna get hell for it at school tomorrow.
It's hard enough hating myself when everyone else seems to hate me too.... ive already got cutting and burn marks on my arm, carvings of 'why' and a satanic pentagram in my leg... i dont want to add to them but i dont know what else to do.
I care so much about what people think of me and i get anxious, stressed nervous around people because of it. This has a major impact on my life. I hate myself so much right now and i'm so pissed off that i had a new start at a new school and i just went and ****ed it up.
My life has lost its purpose. Everything as turned to crap. I feel so low its unimaginable. I cant take this pain anymore. I cry myself to sleep every night. I always wanted someone to love but ive only had my heart torn apart, over and over again.
Help. Please. If anyone has any advice i would be so grateful. I just dont know what to do anymore. I see no way out.
here's my leg: minus(dot)com(forwardslash)mLAAzP1QH#