Attsila
23-06-06, 14:54
Hey there.
My anxiety has taken a weird turn since I had my gall Bladder surgery. Now I have moments where I dwell on the fact that one day everyone is gonna die and that includes me. I like to call it "realizing my own mortality". It started when I kept having alot of DP/DR feelings that I just wasn't real and in a movie or something. It scares the heck out of me and the thought that anything could happen at anytime really does frighten me. Before my surgery I was more afraid of being sick but now it is something so different. I even get afraid that because I think about death so much that it is gonna happen soon or something like it is a premonition or something. The little aches and pains I have had since my surgery don't even phase my doctors so I don't know why I am even worried. 3 months ago I was carefree and nothing bothered me and most would say that I had NO FEAR and great faith and for the most part that was very true. However I lost a couple of friends and a little baby that I held not a couple of weeks ago was killed this week and it just scares the heck out of me cuz I am a single mom and I have my boys to take care of. My dad had alot of health problems and died when he was 42 my uncles both died 6 months later of a mysterious illness too. I had gallstones like my dad did and I am scared I will be like them even though I don't drink or smoke, have tatoos or have a bad diet like they did. My mom is 58 and more active then me and all my grandparents lived past their 70's . So I shouldn't worry at all These feelings even cause me to question my faith which is the real disturbing part. I have been staying with my mom since the surgery and the time has come for me to go home soon and I am scared of that because me and my boys don't live in the best neighborhood....I am sure I had these feelings when I went through this before but it as 8 years ago and I don't remember. I just want to be normal again and not have these feelings and be able to enjoy sleep again like I used to. Anyone have and suggestions. [?]
worrying is alot Like a Rocking Chair It is something todo but it won't get you anywhere
My anxiety has taken a weird turn since I had my gall Bladder surgery. Now I have moments where I dwell on the fact that one day everyone is gonna die and that includes me. I like to call it "realizing my own mortality". It started when I kept having alot of DP/DR feelings that I just wasn't real and in a movie or something. It scares the heck out of me and the thought that anything could happen at anytime really does frighten me. Before my surgery I was more afraid of being sick but now it is something so different. I even get afraid that because I think about death so much that it is gonna happen soon or something like it is a premonition or something. The little aches and pains I have had since my surgery don't even phase my doctors so I don't know why I am even worried. 3 months ago I was carefree and nothing bothered me and most would say that I had NO FEAR and great faith and for the most part that was very true. However I lost a couple of friends and a little baby that I held not a couple of weeks ago was killed this week and it just scares the heck out of me cuz I am a single mom and I have my boys to take care of. My dad had alot of health problems and died when he was 42 my uncles both died 6 months later of a mysterious illness too. I had gallstones like my dad did and I am scared I will be like them even though I don't drink or smoke, have tatoos or have a bad diet like they did. My mom is 58 and more active then me and all my grandparents lived past their 70's . So I shouldn't worry at all These feelings even cause me to question my faith which is the real disturbing part. I have been staying with my mom since the surgery and the time has come for me to go home soon and I am scared of that because me and my boys don't live in the best neighborhood....I am sure I had these feelings when I went through this before but it as 8 years ago and I don't remember. I just want to be normal again and not have these feelings and be able to enjoy sleep again like I used to. Anyone have and suggestions. [?]
worrying is alot Like a Rocking Chair It is something todo but it won't get you anywhere