jazzy14
29-02-12, 18:01
Hey, everyone!
I haven't posted in a little while, probably because my anxiety and OCD seem to be getting a little bit better. It's a slow but sure process. I've been accepting my thoughts, and they are getting easier and easier to deal with. Since I currently have harm OCD, I still have the thought in the back of my head about "what if I accept these thoughts and turn into a serial killer or something?". It's ridiculous, I know, but that is still like my number one fear. Harming others or myself. I realize now that the reason I'm so scared of these thoughts is because my heart and spirit are the EXACT opposite. When I accept these thoughts as just being 'thoughts', they seem to occur less frequently. That's good I guess!
I'm also stopping my trazadone and trying to sleep on my own. This is a hurdle that I am DETERMINED to beat. The past few nights haven't been very fun, but I'm going to be patient. If anyone has any advice or encouragement, I would appreciate it! :)
I haven't posted in a little while, probably because my anxiety and OCD seem to be getting a little bit better. It's a slow but sure process. I've been accepting my thoughts, and they are getting easier and easier to deal with. Since I currently have harm OCD, I still have the thought in the back of my head about "what if I accept these thoughts and turn into a serial killer or something?". It's ridiculous, I know, but that is still like my number one fear. Harming others or myself. I realize now that the reason I'm so scared of these thoughts is because my heart and spirit are the EXACT opposite. When I accept these thoughts as just being 'thoughts', they seem to occur less frequently. That's good I guess!
I'm also stopping my trazadone and trying to sleep on my own. This is a hurdle that I am DETERMINED to beat. The past few nights haven't been very fun, but I'm going to be patient. If anyone has any advice or encouragement, I would appreciate it! :)