JennyW
24-06-06, 20:07
wow, what a godsend this forum is - at last I can talk to people who understand how I really feel without thinking i'm nuts.
I hope it's OK to talk about my fears and get them off my chest?
Two years ago I lost my father very suddenly and unexectedly. I was very close to him and am now still receiving bereavement counselling. The doctor put me on diazepan (sp?) for the first month to help with my initial grieving and I have not had any more since. However, ever since losing my father I'm now obsessed with my health and fear that I will get cancer or some disease and die before my time. Every ache or pain or niggle, I think the worse. Last winter I had a routine mammogram, was recalled for more scans and of course expected the worse and made myself so ill - my period was even late by 3 weeks because of it.
So I've gone through the last 2 years just struggling on with my fears - every day I think something's going to happen to me and sometimes it just totally consumes me - its an awful feeling as I guess many of you will know. Does this mean I have health anxiety?
I now have another worry. A month ago I fell over a banged the back of my head. I've been exeriencing dizziness on and off and my doctor has reassured me it's due to the balance organs in my ear - this I'm quite happy to accept however prior to my doctor telling me this I was on the internet looking up head injuries etc and got myself into a state thinking I'd get some post symptom or even collapse in a couple of months due to the trauma!!!! I suffered neck and shoulder strain too due to the way i fell. Anyway a week or so ago I started getting a bit of tingling in my left leg and my left arm felt sort of "weak". i did the worst thing in the world - checked my symptoms on the internet and convinced myself I had MS. In a panic went to the doctors and he said for my peace of mind he would refer me to a neurologist. I went along this week and after all the usual nerve and balance tests in his office he told me that he's 99% sure the dizziness is coming from my right ear, however my left ankle reflex is sluggish and as I have this weak feeling in my arm he would like to get an MRI done to check for pinched nerves. Eeeek! Now I'm worried they'll find some nerve disease or infact I'll have MS or worse still they'll find something else going on, like cancer.
I'm at my wits end with worry and my husband is currently away in the forces so I feel I have no-one to talk to :(
Even today I've convinced myself that I've felt my lips feel tingling - its driving me mad.
thanks for listening.
I hope it's OK to talk about my fears and get them off my chest?
Two years ago I lost my father very suddenly and unexectedly. I was very close to him and am now still receiving bereavement counselling. The doctor put me on diazepan (sp?) for the first month to help with my initial grieving and I have not had any more since. However, ever since losing my father I'm now obsessed with my health and fear that I will get cancer or some disease and die before my time. Every ache or pain or niggle, I think the worse. Last winter I had a routine mammogram, was recalled for more scans and of course expected the worse and made myself so ill - my period was even late by 3 weeks because of it.
So I've gone through the last 2 years just struggling on with my fears - every day I think something's going to happen to me and sometimes it just totally consumes me - its an awful feeling as I guess many of you will know. Does this mean I have health anxiety?
I now have another worry. A month ago I fell over a banged the back of my head. I've been exeriencing dizziness on and off and my doctor has reassured me it's due to the balance organs in my ear - this I'm quite happy to accept however prior to my doctor telling me this I was on the internet looking up head injuries etc and got myself into a state thinking I'd get some post symptom or even collapse in a couple of months due to the trauma!!!! I suffered neck and shoulder strain too due to the way i fell. Anyway a week or so ago I started getting a bit of tingling in my left leg and my left arm felt sort of "weak". i did the worst thing in the world - checked my symptoms on the internet and convinced myself I had MS. In a panic went to the doctors and he said for my peace of mind he would refer me to a neurologist. I went along this week and after all the usual nerve and balance tests in his office he told me that he's 99% sure the dizziness is coming from my right ear, however my left ankle reflex is sluggish and as I have this weak feeling in my arm he would like to get an MRI done to check for pinched nerves. Eeeek! Now I'm worried they'll find some nerve disease or infact I'll have MS or worse still they'll find something else going on, like cancer.
I'm at my wits end with worry and my husband is currently away in the forces so I feel I have no-one to talk to :(
Even today I've convinced myself that I've felt my lips feel tingling - its driving me mad.
thanks for listening.