capricorn234
03-03-12, 20:01
I feel unbearably sad and alone. I have ruined something good with someone because of my chronic insecurity, OCD and anxiety. I frightened him away because I got scared and sent insecure messages, when he didn't reply I felt panicky and sent a few more and left a message on his voicemail explaining how I know I blew it, I was anxious and to ask if I could just speak to him to explain what happened with me....I have not heard anything. I am so sad and numb and feel tonight I have had enough of living with this condition that ruins everything good I try to achieve. We were geting on so well and I know he really liked me then I spoilt it all. I know I have to now let go, not contact him again, I can't change it now. I don't know if I will get a response but I am hurting so much. I am starting a job next week, have been to the doctors who has upped my meds and hope I will be able to face things again soon, I feel like I am autopilot but very depressed. I just need some support,,thankyou Ellie