TallAndrew
06-03-12, 11:50
Hi guys,
I have posted in various subsections here and have received sound advice from many people so am looking for similar stuff here. To give a quick general story for those who haven't seen my other threads. I have been diagnosed with OCD, Anxiety and Depression (taking citalopram)*and I believe that as part of my symptoms I have become a compulsive masturbator. This leads me to fantazising about other women, especially those that I have met and this causes me great consternation. For some reason if I have met the person then that leads to "aiding" me with any fantasy but of course it isnt very normal!! Since I have been in a relationship for the last month or so I have really tried to not look at pictures on Facebook of any friends etc but last night, after a session with a sexual therapist, we talked about me having formed very rigid boundaries in my head of what I perceive as appropriate behaviour in a relationship and what is not and as I say, these rules are very rigid. Now for a little experiment and partly through compulsion/urge I did look at a picture last night and fantasized about the girl in the picture and now, as I feared I feel like a complete letdown both to myself as well as my girlfriend. I am hopefully seeing a consultant re my OCD etc but these intrusive thoughts are only giving me lots of grief and I am looking for any advice from anyone on how to cope. It is almost like I have a form of split personality. There is the part of me that fears doing anything that could be perceived to hurt my gf in anyway, and the other part which thinks I havent done anything wrong and the more I try to say, not look at an attractive woman, the harder it is to not look.
I have posted in various subsections here and have received sound advice from many people so am looking for similar stuff here. To give a quick general story for those who haven't seen my other threads. I have been diagnosed with OCD, Anxiety and Depression (taking citalopram)*and I believe that as part of my symptoms I have become a compulsive masturbator. This leads me to fantazising about other women, especially those that I have met and this causes me great consternation. For some reason if I have met the person then that leads to "aiding" me with any fantasy but of course it isnt very normal!! Since I have been in a relationship for the last month or so I have really tried to not look at pictures on Facebook of any friends etc but last night, after a session with a sexual therapist, we talked about me having formed very rigid boundaries in my head of what I perceive as appropriate behaviour in a relationship and what is not and as I say, these rules are very rigid. Now for a little experiment and partly through compulsion/urge I did look at a picture last night and fantasized about the girl in the picture and now, as I feared I feel like a complete letdown both to myself as well as my girlfriend. I am hopefully seeing a consultant re my OCD etc but these intrusive thoughts are only giving me lots of grief and I am looking for any advice from anyone on how to cope. It is almost like I have a form of split personality. There is the part of me that fears doing anything that could be perceived to hurt my gf in anyway, and the other part which thinks I havent done anything wrong and the more I try to say, not look at an attractive woman, the harder it is to not look.