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nomorepanic
08-05-04, 01:03
Hi all
I have been a miserable so-and-so these last 3 weeks and I don't know why.
I am angry at work and angry at people on here and that is not good, so I am sorry to everyone I upset.
I just feel so sad all the time and i keep crying and I am not used to feeling like this atall. Those of you that know me will know how positive I normally am but I have hit a real low.
Foruntely I have not had any panic/anxiety yet but I am scared that it is sitting in the wings waiting to pounce again!
I just feel so miserable and depressed all the time and I can't shake it off. Work is really stressing me so I am guessing it is that but I am not sleeping so I am feeling really dizzy at work.
This is not like me and I do not want to feel like this but it has taken over and I am just not myself and I feel so stressed and put upon.
I am not looking for sympathy here I am looking for help!
I have a stressful job as well - if we don't fix it then passengers get annoyed cos the plane gets delayed!
I just feel so miserable and cant explain why. I just feel so angry at people and why they don't fix things so I am sorry for that.
Things are looking bad at the moment but they will get better soon I hope!!!!!!!!!!
xx
Nicola
Hiya Nic,
I know how low you have been feeling lately and how hard it is for you to get back on top of things.
We all appreciate what a lot of work you do here but it is often forgotten that you are also a sufferer and so have low times as well.
As you know, I have recently been through terrible low times and felt exactly as you do.
But, it will pass and you will slowly start feeling better, though noone can say how long that will take.
You know we all care about you and will help you as much as we can, as you have always helped us.
As you have previously told us all, the best thing is to post your feelings on here and not be afraid to ask for advise and help as often as you need.
You are a strong person, Nic, and have the courage to fight back.
We are all here for you and will help you out as much as we can.
Take care, mate
Kate xxxxxxx
jollywalrus
08-05-04, 14:17
Hi Nicola,
I only know you from this site, but I have noticed your posts of late and would like to help if I can. This site has done a lot for me. My anxiety kicked me in to an awful depression, a bit like wading through treacle, then I read a post on this site and I managed to see a new point of view. I think it was Bryan who said that inbetween panics you can have good bits in your life as well. That hadn't occured to me - everything was doom and gloom - but this was my "lightbulb" moment! He was right and although I have a long way to go, I have made every effort to pull myself up again. I have tried to appreciate the things I have and can do and I am more hopeful. This was your lovely site that did this. THANK YOU!
My advice to you is to give yourself a chance. We all know these feelings so well and we know that we go down and we come back up. Depression comes from emotional fatigue, our brains can get tired just like out bodies. I hope you feel better soon, and thank you and all of the forum contributors for helping me.
Best wishes,
Christine
Hiya Nic
Just to add a little.
Kate is right..it does seem like the end of the world but it will get better. Your job is definately stressing you out so what im suggesting is this...
Dont worry about us in here so much. Im not saying we can cope without you but you need a little space. Think of yourself as someone coming in here for help instead of someone who has to help others.
Take nice hot relaxing baths before bed. Light some candles and find some good book to lose yourself in.
Get alex to take you somewhere nice..just out for a quick drink or out for a nice meal.
Look foreward to your week at the health farm..it will be here before you know it.
Try and take a couple of days holiday from work..tell them its for a wedding or something if they are funny about it....do some gardening or go out for the day...do something thats physically exhausting instead of mentally and you will get a good nights sleep..i guarantee it...lol
And dont forget matey....summer is here soon!!!!
chin up babe..we are here for you!!!!
love Sarah
xx
we arent mad, just the next stage of evolution :)
Hi NIC,
I am sorry to hear youv'e been feeling down lately. I feel really selfish as I forgot that you too are a sufferer just like the rest of us, I just always felt that you were on top of things.
Try and not be too hard on yourself, you are not 'superwoman' and therefore you cant do everything by yourself.
Last year I too felt like you, my work was casuing me loads of stress and I felt down all the time. I just couldnt see any light at the end of the tunnel and thats when my panic attacks and migraines started happening again.
You seem to have loads going on in your life at the moment and maybe whats been happening is that you have been 'burning candles at both ends'. If work is stressing you out, maybe take a holiday or a long weekend off just to recharge your batteries. Maybe speak to your supervisor regarding any problems at work if you feel you can. We spend so much time at work, therefore I think it is important to be happy there. Last year I had to leave my job due to the stress I was under and I am not suggesting you do the same but dont let it make you ill, life is too short.
I agree with sarah, you need to pamper yourself a bit by taking nice long hot baths, burn some candles etc...Look after yourself, make sure you get enough sleep as that will definetly ensure that you wont be as stressed during the day. Have you tried taking Nytol to help you get a good night sleep?
I hope that you are feeling a bit better today. We are always here for you just like you are always here for us. Try and stay positive the best you can because this 'blip' will pass and you will get back on the right track before you know it.
I too have a had 'blip' with my recovery lately but just being able to come on this forum and share my thoughts etc with everyone is so comforting. Remember it is you that has made this all possible for all of us and we are grateful for it.
Take care
sadie
nomorepanic
08-05-04, 17:47
Hi all
Thanks for the lovely replies - much appreciated. :)
Kate - I will continue to burden you when we chat on MSN (only kidding). You do look after me though so thanks for that. You are a great friend. :)
Christine - I am pleased to hear that the site is helping you. I have some lovely caring members in here and 3 fantastic moderators - Meg, Sarah and Diana who do a great job of keeping things going for me.
Sarah - cheers mate. I will definitely look into that bath thing cos as you may know I have a lovely spa bath upstairs and it is definitely under-used. All those lovely bubbles and candles should chill me out a bit! I think you are right about going out too. Me and Alex don't seem to do much of that nowadays - my fault more than his. I will see if we can go out for a day at the weekend instead of sitting around here. I love gardening, just the blooming rain spoils it!! Thanks for looking after stuff on here for me too. [:p]
Sadie - You are not selfish. I am usually ok and most of the time I am cured (lol) but I just feel miserable. No panic/anxiety yet so I am not going to let it get me again. Work is somewhere that I should be happy, I know that, it is just cos I work with a load of men who don't seem to care about anything most of the time (that was not a slur on all men, lol, just the ones I work with). I guess being the only woman in a team of 9 doesn't help either cos I don't get the female sympathy that I am probably needing.:(
All - thanks for caring about me. I am sorry to everyone I have upset recently, I will try to be more understanding cos when I need help then you are there for me too.
I was quite looking forward to going to Meg's today but it got cancelled so we will have to re-arrange that sometime.[8D]
I am going to watch a bit of TV and chill out now so catch you all later and thanks! [:p]:)
xxx
Nicola
Hi Nic
Spa bath???? you posh thing..now im definately jealous..having said that ive got one of those big old origional baths with the claw feet and it holds loads of water so its not that bad...lol
ENJOY!!!! get Alex to scrub your back for you!!!
love Sarah
xx
we arent mad, just the next stage of evolution :)
Dear Nic,
Is any of this pure frustration and feeling let down by colleagues.
Most anxiety stricken people are clever, sensitive, creative and have extremely high standards both at home and at work and can often be driven to tears and emotion by not being able to keep those standards up due to short staffing, cutbacks, being rushed, confrontations and tension etc.
Or(by someone we both spoke to on the phone )- trying hard to help someone who doesn't tell the whole story and actually is not open to the advice we're trying to offer which we know would have helped and in fact chose to do exactly the opposite.
Its hard sometimes to swallow that we are not all striuving for the same recovery conclusion.
We are built with a complex range of emotions and whilst its lovely to be on an even keel , other feelings nad emotions do kick in and because we are so sensitive to anything that feels odd these are accentuated and are thus much more noticeable.
Also being so disappointed in your shopping centre anxiety is probably still an undercurrent within you as you're not in a frame of mind currently to force it out so quickly as you would usually.
It has been a lunar eclipse and soem peole are very affected by that lunar cycle...
When I'm feeling muggy or sad the thing that never fails to lift me is a walk round a reservoir/countryside where lambs are playing and swans are sitting on nests and ducklings are now following Mum accompanied by real bird song. Sun shining would be a bonus but not essential .
We're all here for you.. whatever it takes
Love
Meg
'There can only be true courage when first there is genuine fear'
Dr.David Livingstone
imported_n/a
08-05-04, 19:26
hey nic tried to post this ,,this morning but failed, anyway i am here now,,nic we all have bad times as you know that anxiety and deppression go hand in hand,,and the weather at the moment dosent help but hey you have been such an inspiration to me nic,,so you should be really proud of yourself and take inspiration from helping so many people nic,,really do hope you will be back in the chatroom soon i miss your spelling mistakes hee hee,,were here for you nic ok,,xxxxxxxdarrenxxxxxx
Hiya Nicola
Just read your post, and can appreciate how you are feeling. Ive dont quite well myself upsetting people, when it isnt their fault, but sometimes you just get so low and paranoid, rational thinking disappears doesnt it. But you need to take time out for yourself and try to get on top of it before the panic and anxiety comes back. We are all here to help you as much as you do us, so dont ever forget that. You have got a stressful job and i appreciate that because if people arent happy with what they are been told they can be really hurtful and aggressive. At times we need to step back from that and remember that it is not personally directed at us but we are the bearers of new they really dont want to here. Anyhow if you want to talk you know where i am. Like Sarah said get Alex to take you out and treat you, that will make you feel better i am sure. So chin up and you know where i am if you want to talk.
Lots of love Sal xxxxx
PS Youll be disappointed in this one had bbq today, about 25 adults and 20 kids, started drinking at 2 & totally sober!!!!!! think i took it steady though with all those BRATTS around. LOL xxxxx
Sal xxxx
silentcalligraph
08-05-04, 23:43
Hi Nicola
I just wanted to say if I have somehow contributed to your recent stress my apologies. There's already so much good advice listed in this thread that I can't think of anything to add. But like all others I would like to thank you for giving us all so much. Now it's time for us to give back! I truly hope you feel better soon (or rather right now)!
Dear Nicola,
I'm sorry to hear you're having a rough time. I know you said you want help, not sympathy, but I even though I have no answers for you, I still wanted to post a good word because of all you and this site have done for me. I will hold you in my prayers, and know that you will soon begin to feel light and happy again.
Warmest regards,
Lilith
hi nic...read an article in lancet,a few days ago...it said about the seasons,for instance,i come alive this time of year,and how i incubate myself,in autumn,its so true.
but it also said,if we feel a bit down,and we look around at people ,who are happy,it makes us feel more depressed..dont know if that makes sense!
theres 24hrs in a day..work eight(or more)..socialise eight(or less)..sleep eight(or in your case,much less),and you have the recipe for depression.
my friend,your..quality time..is very low,you need time out for nicola,as you have said,you have great moderators..use them..forget NMP for a few weeks,pamper yourself,buy some clothes,makeup,go back to basics,learn to relax,go to that great pub,and have a lovely meal,without thinking of the washing up,you have a great guy in alex,learn to lean on him,he wont mind,hes one in a million!
relax my friend,love from bryan xxx.
april tones
09-05-04, 09:02
:D hi nic, so sorry to hear you are down. we are all here for you like you for us. You do need time for your self. Your probably doing too much. What do you do in job? do you exercise as i find this helps which you probably know any way. Have you been to doctors about it? You will get better,you have come along way. Panic attacks wont come back unless you let them. I had panicky thought last night, first in while, had bad headache which i think was a migraine,then felt sick, i thought what if its something serious, i then thought hope i dont have panic attack beecause of this, i didnt!! so it proves it doesnt always come back. I managed to take two paracetomels too, i was told by pharmisist i could take with effexor but was still scared incase.I think tiredness is defineatly playing a part in this, also just an thought, could it be hormonal? i get extra weepy and panicky before a period and this aggravates everything. hope ive helped a bit, take care, thinking of you, you have a lot to be proud of yourself for, love april
apriltones
Hi Nic
Have just read your post. Sorry you are feeling so down - you have been given lots of good advice here, I think pampering yourself and doing things that make you feel good is really important.
I hope you come back in the chat room soon, I haven't been in much as have been revising but I will try and pop in tonight so we can chat if you are around.
By the way have you heard about the new sleeping tablet that will be licenced soon, cant remember the name now but read in the paper - it is apparently really effective and NO side effects or addiction! Sounds great for sufferers like you, I know how bad no sleep can make you feel.
Anyway, back to the grindstone now - i hope you are feeling a bit better
Lot of love
Emily
nomorepanic
09-05-04, 21:23
quote:Originally posted by Radar
Is any of this pure frustration and feeling let down by colleagues.
Most anxiety stricken people are clever, sensitive, creative and have extremely high standards both at home and at work and can often be driven to tears and emotion by not being able to keep those standards up due to short staffing, cutbacks, being rushed, confrontations and tension etc.
Or(by someone we both spoke to on the phone )- trying hard to help someone who doesn't tell the whole story and actually is not open to the advice we're trying to offer which we know would have helped and in fact chose to do exactly the opposite.
Meg
This hits the nail on the head. I am very frustrated at work cos they just don't seem to care and I am a perfectionist so I find it hard that they just don't care! It does't help that Nick is off sick still - will be 12 weeks - and he is the one that gave me so much grief when I was off sick. He is taking the p*** now with the time off but no-one can do anything cos he just goes to the docs and gets signed off again. To all that don't know the situation with Nick - he has a football injury and is quite capable of working from home but refuses to.
I find it hard to motivate the other guy I work with cos he is up and leaving to go to Aussie soon so is biding his time at Britannia.
My boss can't seem to get them motivated or interested either so it is a lost cause.
I wish I could be like them and not care if the work doesn't get done but I can't.
I wish I could just go off sick for a week but that is not like me and I think that you know I would not do it.
Anyway - let's see what this week brings.
Thanks for the support Meg - you know I appreciate it.
xx
Nicola
nomorepanic
09-05-04, 21:27
quote:Originally posted by darren
hey nic tried to post this ,,this morning but failed, anyway i am here now,,nic we all have bad times as you know that anxiety and deppression go hand in hand,,and the weather at the moment dosent help but hey you have been such an inspiration to me nic,,so you should be really proud of yourself and take inspiration from helping so many people nic,,really do hope you will be back in the chatroom soon i miss your spelling mistakes hee hee,,were here for you nic ok,,xxxxxxxdarrenxxxxxx
Thanks Darren
I appreciate the support and yes you would all miss my spelling in the chat room - lol!!
xx
Nicola
nomorepanic
09-05-04, 21:29
quote:Originally posted by salbrunny
PS Youll be disappointed in this one had bbq today, about 25 adults and 20 kids, started drinking at 2 & totally sober!!!!!! think i took it steady though with all those BRATTS around. LOL xxxxx
Sal xxxx
Hey Sal that is great news. Thanks for caring for me too.
Us wine drinkers have got to stick together - lol.
Nicola
nomorepanic
09-05-04, 21:30
quote:Originally posted by silentcalligraph
Hi Nicola
I just wanted to say if I have somehow contributed to your recent stress my apologies. There's already so much good advice listed in this thread that I can't think of anything to add. But like all others I would like to thank you for giving us all so much. Now it's time for us to give back! I truly hope you feel better soon (or rather right now)!
Hiya
Not atall. It is my own fault for trying to do too much and take too much on.
Thanks for the kind words.
x
Nicola
nomorepanic
09-05-04, 21:30
quote:Originally posted by Lilith
Dear Nicola,
I'm sorry to hear you're having a rough time. I know you said you want help, not sympathy, but I even though I have no answers for you, I still wanted to post a good word because of all you and this site have done for me. I will hold you in my prayers, and know that you will soon begin to feel light and happy again.
Warmest regards,
Lilith
Thanks Lilith :)
Nicola
nomorepanic
09-05-04, 21:32
quote:Originally posted by benoo5
hi nic...read an article in lancet,a few days ago...it said about the seasons,for instance,i come alive this time of year,and how i incubate myself,in autumn,its so true.
but it also said,if we feel a bit down,and we look around at people ,who are happy,it makes us feel more depressed..dont know if that makes sense!
theres 24hrs in a day..work eight(or more)..socialise eight(or less)..sleep eight(or in your case,much less),and you have the recipe for depression.
my friend,your..quality time..is very low,you need time out for nicola,as you have said,you have great moderators..use them..forget NMP for a few weeks,pamper yourself,buy some clothes,makeup,go back to basics,learn to relax,go to that great pub,and have a lovely meal,without thinking of the washing up,you have a great guy in alex,learn to lean on him,he wont mind,hes one in a million!
relax my friend,love from bryan xxx.
Hi Bryan
I do tend to forget about "me" time and this site comes first in my evening activities. But I am taking on board what people are saying and I am trying to chill out a bit more and take some time off.
Thanks for caring Bryan :)
xxxx
Nicola
nomorepanic
09-05-04, 21:38
quote:Originally posted by april tones
:D hi nic, so sorry to hear you are down. we are all here for you like you for us. You do need time for your self. Your probably doing too much. What do you do in job? do you exercise as i find this helps which you probably know any way. Have you been to doctors about it? You will get better,you have come along way. Panic attacks wont come back unless you let them. I had panicky thought last night, first in while, had bad headache which i think was a migraine,then felt sick, i thought what if its something serious, i then thought hope i dont have panic attack beecause of this, i didnt!! so it proves it doesnt always come back. I managed to take two paracetomels too, i was told by pharmisist i could take with effexor but was still scared incase.I think tiredness is defineatly playing a part in this, also just an thought, could it be hormonal? i get extra weepy and panicky before a period and this aggravates everything. hope ive helped a bit, take care, thinking of you, you have a lot to be proud of yourself for, love april
apriltones
Hi April
My job is a Unix System Administrator for Britannia Airways so I basically look after the computers that run the airline operations. It can be stressful at times and even more so when I work with people that don't seem to care.
I do quite a lot of exercise as this is what initially stopped my panic attacks. I do an aerobics class on Monday and then swim Tue-Fri. I don't find it tires me out enough to make me sleep though. I feel shattered but just can't sleep very well.
I have not seen the doc yet as I am not sure what is wrong. If I can work that out then it may help me. If it is stress then I have to remove the stress factors as best I can.
I am hoping to get some time off soon - I have a week off the beginning and end of June so we shall see whether a break away from it call cures me.
Thanks for the kind words, I do appreciate it.
Nicola
nomorepanic
09-05-04, 21:43
quote:Originally posted by twister
By the way have you heard about the new sleeping tablet that will be licenced soon, cant remember the name now but read in the paper - it is apparently really effective and NO side effects or addiction! Sounds great for sufferers like you, I know how bad no sleep can make you feel.
Hiya Em
Thanks for the kind words.
I have not heard about that tablet but it sounds good to me. We shall have to see if it ever comes out.
Hope to catch you in chat - I am in now!
Nicola
Hi Nic just read message,
Sorry to hear you are feeling so low at the moment.
It could have stemed from the car park/shopping incident. Sometimes when you think you are doing so well and then you have a setback in can make you feel really low. It doesen't always come out right away either.
It also sounds like you take on to much as well! With work and with No More Panic. You are here for everyone and you do a Fab job. The feelings you are experiencing at the moment is probably your body saying ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!
I think some of the best things you can do for yourself. Is :
You need some YOU TIME
R & R (Rest & relaxation)
Watch a stupid comedy. Or daytime T.V if not at work (actually sorry ignore the latter it might make you feel worse!)LOL!
I find some of the natural remedies help ay times: Whether or not it's pyscological I dont know? but if my brain thinks it's working. Then who am I to argue!
A couple of Homeopathic remedies which might help are Ignatia & Sepia they both help with Depression mood swings etc Sepia is also good if you cry alot!
Good old Bach Flower remedies:
Some which might help you are:
Elm For - Overwhelmed burden by responsability.
Mustard For - Deep gloom for no apparant reason.
Gorse For - Hoplessness, despair, pessimism.
Impatiens For feeling irritable (Hubby needs this before going shopping! LOL)
Some of these may help you (I have built up quite a collection now LOL) You can also mix up to 7 remedies at once! YIPEEEEEE!!! Careful though you might turn into a flower!! LOL
You can buy these in Boots or Holland & Barrett they also have leaflets on them to. You might have to ask though as they are not always on display!
Well I am sorry if I have waffled on to much. And this was in the quick reply section to whoops!! You probably know all of this info anyway.! SORRY !
Hope i didn't sound like I was preaching. I tell you what though If I could believe half of the advice I have just given. I might be nearly cured (NOT) LOL
Hope you are feeling better & remember you are not Super human & this is just a Blip!!!!
Take Care & stay POSITIVE!!!!!!
Love PMT Pip's XX
Hi again Nic,
Sorry just wanted to add that i realise most of the remedies are in the Natural Remedies home Page. I just typed out what i might use in the situation you are in!
Love PMT PIP'SXX
We are so tuned into thinking about panic, anxiety and depression as that's what we're looking out for, that we forget to actually take time to figure out what other emotions and feelings are on display at this time.
With the situation that you're in and being the person that you are Nic, I don't think you're troubled with depression but are miserable as a direct result of unresolved prolonged frustration leading to irritability and then building up to anger without having an avenue to vent it through. All very normal reactions to a few difficult situations..
As you already do quite a lot of exercise , your normal stuff will not relieve this but doing something different that involves being loud or aggressive probably will - so Liz's punch ball, a thump the sofa session, screeching along a windy beach.
Many long term anxious people are true perfectionists and people constantly not achieving their standards can be interpreted as not trying hard enough or being lazy whereas just above ' it'll do' is where many people aim and anything else is just unnecessary effort..
A word about Nick being off sick and refusing to work from home.
If he made an error whilst working from home (or anywhere else) and it was found out that he was working whilst under a sick note - it does make the employers and any of his personal insurances null and void....
Take care Nic. We're all rooting for you.
Meg
'There can only be true courage when first there is genuine fear'
Dr.David Livingstone
Hi Nicola
Just read your first and subsequent posts in this topic. Can't write too much at the moment but just had to say that I am so sorry you are feeling bad.xxx I'll write more tomorrow, in the meantime, like everyone else has said - take it easy, when you can.
I'll be thinking of you.
red
x
imported_n/a
10-05-04, 20:04
hey nic,,how are you feeling,,better i do hope,,althou after seeing my photo hasnt helped sorry lol,,chin up nic ok,,,
nomorepanic
11-05-04, 21:52
Pips - Thanks for caring and all the tips. I am trying to take all of them on board and do what I would tell you guys to do. I do appreciate the advice and the post so thanks for taking time to reply.
Meg - yeah I do feel like punching something or someone. I shouted at Alex last week and feel bad about it cos it is not his fault (made me feel better - lol). The thing with Nick is that we have told him to work from home - which he is capable of cos he can dial in with the laptop. He has CHOSEN not to. He says that he cant't drive so can't come in but we have offered to pick him up or let him work at home. He won't. This is what annoys me so much! He is now signed off another 2 weeks - making it 3 months. He also gives me such a hard time when I am off sick!
Red - thanks for the post just to let me know that you care - I appreciate it!
Darren - I am getting there but I am so far behind on the message forum that I feel out of touch - lol
All - things that still annoy me seem so silly but they are driving me mad....
Like, one of my cats that won't leave me alone all night. Sits at my feet, padding me, miaowing, jumping up. Sounds cute - but driving me mad.
Being called from work all the time. I have been on-call for 8 weeks out of 11 and I got called last night and am now waiting to sort out another problem as they called me again tonight!! We can't do much about this as me and Kev are doing alternate weeks on-call till Nick comes back in.
This guy in the swimming pool who keeps telling me to do more than 40 lengths and get to the pool earlier. a) I feel that 40 lengths is enough and I don't have time to do more and b) I can't choose the hours I work - I do different shifts.
And finally - I got my car back today and the paint job isn't up-to-scratch (lol) so I have all the hassle of taking it back to be redone next week.
I am sure you can you all see how petty these things are but they are driving me mad and making me very irritable. I know they are stupid little things but they are all adding up and I think that is why I am so down - just too many little things that add up to one BIG one.
Anyway, I will sort it out soon with some R&R.
Cheers for all the replies
xxx
Nicola
Hi Nicola
It feels like you are on the track again now, well done! Reading back on your posts again I think that you have probably felt a 'normal' reaction to what has gone on at work which has caused you a lot of stress. Sometimes we are reminded of what being depressed / anxious feels like and take it as read that it has something to do with our 'condition'. I think in your case it seems like your feelings are not disproportionate at all and ARE 'normal'. I don't think that you did anything wrong on the anxiety management side, you just felt like anyone would have done in the circumstances and so are beating yourself up for no reason (if ever there would be one!)
I have a useful questionnaire that may help you to understand why you feel like you do in certain situations at work and why you perhaps feel that others don't give a toss. Let me know if you want me to send it on to you.
Still thinking of you - take care of yourself and pat yourself on the back for being 'normal' rather than booting yourself up the bum!!!
Red
xxx
Hi Nic
I recently had a real bad panic attack - like the one you experienced in the shopping mall. This also happened when I felt I was doing so well and was actually beginning to seriously ask myself "Have I beaten it?" I hadn't had any real anxiety or panic for over six months. It was so depressing - so depressing - to realise I wasn't over it yet and was still vulnerable. In the days after it I became irritated with myself and with other people and situations, and worried I was heading for depression. (I do believe that repressing anger is linked to anxiety, and I've never been good with handling those feelings.)And the worry made me anxious, and I became angrier with myself for being pathetic and more worried I was losing it or heading for losing it....God, it's so exhausting sometimes! I'm coming out of it now, weeks later, but the anxiety has returned to be a daily focus whereas before I'd really banished it to the back of the mind.
But life goes on and we persevere to make the best of it, and I think we're quite good at doing that. So I hope you're soon back to your old self and finding some of that R&R that you deserve.
Jim
Jim,
i'm sorry that this panic attack has knocked you right back to anxiety on a daily basis. The fear of a panic attack had obviously subsided and when it hits it is such a shock (as well as scary and making you feel like crap)
I hope you can get back to the stage you were at before Jim and soon. But I know the anticipation of panic is sometimes worse than the panic itself
Hang on in there
Lucky
Hi Nic I know that this post is way late I,m sorry I really do hope you are feeling better. I have a few weeks ago started taking time out for myself.With your busy life you have made I think you should also take some Nic time where you spend an hour just doing nothing take a bath put some nice relaxing music on and just soak (I like listening to enya she is so good)clear your mind and relax.It helps me anyway.
The amount of work you have taken on is a worry to me,I know you are a loving and careing person.And I know you read every post on this site it must be hard for you not to worry about some of our problems
I am just starting to recover from my depression and it is so hard to stay well.So I hope you feel much better.
I hope I havent said anything wrong WE CARE FOR YOU NIC BRILL
Never give up
Never give in
Life,s to short
Make it last :)
Brill
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