RavenLight
09-03-12, 19:47
i feel like i'm at that point where i don't trust my thinking nor my body. i had been doing really well for awhile but now it's all on my again. the daily anxiety, the up and down panic. it feels like no matter what i do, whether i'm eating right, sleeping right, whatever, i still feel like poop.
i keep getting that feeling that nothing is real. it's not complete depersonalization/derealization, but it's close to it. that feeling of nothing matters. who cares? depression? probably. i posted earlier about how separating from my partner has been really tough. we're still living together but will not be very soon. i keep hoping that once it's totally over and i'm able to heal away from him, that i will feel better. but, there's that fear that it's just me and well, wherever you go, there you are.
i know stress isn't good for us. especially us. not sure what i can do now to not feel it.
anyone else feel betrayed by their body and mind? anything help? i feel so distant from myself. like i'm in this foreign container and i want to get out! keep thinking, if it weren't for this stupid body i'd be free. i'd be fine. and then that gets me scared because i think, what if i really try to do something to "get out?"
thanks, guys, for reading. sometimes it feels so lonely and it feels like it's going to be this way forever. somewhere i know this isn't true. but, mostly it's what's in front of me.
i keep getting that feeling that nothing is real. it's not complete depersonalization/derealization, but it's close to it. that feeling of nothing matters. who cares? depression? probably. i posted earlier about how separating from my partner has been really tough. we're still living together but will not be very soon. i keep hoping that once it's totally over and i'm able to heal away from him, that i will feel better. but, there's that fear that it's just me and well, wherever you go, there you are.
i know stress isn't good for us. especially us. not sure what i can do now to not feel it.
anyone else feel betrayed by their body and mind? anything help? i feel so distant from myself. like i'm in this foreign container and i want to get out! keep thinking, if it weren't for this stupid body i'd be free. i'd be fine. and then that gets me scared because i think, what if i really try to do something to "get out?"
thanks, guys, for reading. sometimes it feels so lonely and it feels like it's going to be this way forever. somewhere i know this isn't true. but, mostly it's what's in front of me.