TillySm
10-03-12, 01:17
Hello,
I posted about a month ago I think asking for advice and now I am after more advice.
I am still in the midst of a mental health crisis that is hard to get out of. If you recall I suffer from OCD/panic disorder/anxiety complicated by sleep apnea.
I am now on 100mg of Zoloft and have been on it for about 2 months. The problem is that it is not helping and I am starting to think this is more than panic/anxiety. The reason is - the anxiety *feels* like it has gone, just the physical effects of it but the mental effects remain.
I just wanted to share the extra symptoms - And my question is - is it still panic\anxiety. Constant racing thoughts throughout the day, sometimes of bizarre images or thoughts. I hear fragmented sound bites of conversations I have had 5 minutes ago in my mind (not actually hear them, only in my mind). Constant need to try and find a solution what is wrong, and when I feel a bit positive it only lasts for one hour and I am doubting the positivity. Strange automatic thoughts that analize my memories and my concept of time, it makes me feel so strange and I have an instant worry pang (this happens all day). NO DISTRACTION works my mind is always racing.. sometimes when I am walking it feels like I am not moving but the world is moving under me (I hate that). Sometimes I look at objects and my mind says what it is - like magazine, book, chair.. this is distracting and makes me worry. Unability to handle stressfull situations, things that normally wouldn't worry me do now.. extreme suggestability that is close to delusion like - I read about the exorcism of emily rose and started to panic that I am perhaps possessed and this is spiritual.. I keep telling myself NO it's BS but I worry about it anyway. Then I will automatically scratch myself or something (like a normal automatic response that is almost not conscious) and I freak out that it wasn't me that caused me to scratch when I know deep down that it was me. Sometimes all most believing delusions that god is mad with me and I am stuffed etc. My mind is fragmented - doesn't feel like it is connected. Constant negative intrusive thoughts. I have severe feelings of unreality sometimes. Feelings of time distortion. Loss of appetite, can't relax and enjoy things I used to, feelings of hopelessness. Awareness flicking in and out of my mind. "intuitive functioning" is gone, I question everything automatically.
Phew, that is alot of symptoms but I got the gist out there too you.
What worries me is that I think the Zoloft has controlled the physical feelings of anxiety but I have all this mental crap. Is it still just anxiety fooling me?
What do you guys think? Still panic or some sort of sleep deprived psychosis?
I posted about a month ago I think asking for advice and now I am after more advice.
I am still in the midst of a mental health crisis that is hard to get out of. If you recall I suffer from OCD/panic disorder/anxiety complicated by sleep apnea.
I am now on 100mg of Zoloft and have been on it for about 2 months. The problem is that it is not helping and I am starting to think this is more than panic/anxiety. The reason is - the anxiety *feels* like it has gone, just the physical effects of it but the mental effects remain.
I just wanted to share the extra symptoms - And my question is - is it still panic\anxiety. Constant racing thoughts throughout the day, sometimes of bizarre images or thoughts. I hear fragmented sound bites of conversations I have had 5 minutes ago in my mind (not actually hear them, only in my mind). Constant need to try and find a solution what is wrong, and when I feel a bit positive it only lasts for one hour and I am doubting the positivity. Strange automatic thoughts that analize my memories and my concept of time, it makes me feel so strange and I have an instant worry pang (this happens all day). NO DISTRACTION works my mind is always racing.. sometimes when I am walking it feels like I am not moving but the world is moving under me (I hate that). Sometimes I look at objects and my mind says what it is - like magazine, book, chair.. this is distracting and makes me worry. Unability to handle stressfull situations, things that normally wouldn't worry me do now.. extreme suggestability that is close to delusion like - I read about the exorcism of emily rose and started to panic that I am perhaps possessed and this is spiritual.. I keep telling myself NO it's BS but I worry about it anyway. Then I will automatically scratch myself or something (like a normal automatic response that is almost not conscious) and I freak out that it wasn't me that caused me to scratch when I know deep down that it was me. Sometimes all most believing delusions that god is mad with me and I am stuffed etc. My mind is fragmented - doesn't feel like it is connected. Constant negative intrusive thoughts. I have severe feelings of unreality sometimes. Feelings of time distortion. Loss of appetite, can't relax and enjoy things I used to, feelings of hopelessness. Awareness flicking in and out of my mind. "intuitive functioning" is gone, I question everything automatically.
Phew, that is alot of symptoms but I got the gist out there too you.
What worries me is that I think the Zoloft has controlled the physical feelings of anxiety but I have all this mental crap. Is it still just anxiety fooling me?
What do you guys think? Still panic or some sort of sleep deprived psychosis?