dannibear94
12-03-12, 00:22
Hi, well I've had this fear of blood clots for the past 2 years after a relative died unexpectedly at a young age. And ever since I've had a fear of developing one and of death.
It just seems like for the past few months i've been at rock bottom, I'm finding it really hard to pick myself up. Like usually I'll have panic attacks about it and convince myself I must be dying and I'll get over it in like a couple of weeks and be fine for a few months but recently i've been struggling. I never told my parents about my fears because I didn't think they'd understand, but last week I had a massive panic attack and decided it was time to tell them. They were supportive at the time because I was upset but now they're just well its like they don't get it at all. I think that anyone who hasn't been there and had constant worries and fear will ever get how an anxiety sufferer feels. Anyway recently Ive had this bad pain in my chest which goes up to my neck down my arm causing pain in my armpit and shoulder. Im really really worried about its like I can't help but google my symptoms either which makes things a million times worse. So far I have diagnosed myself with a rare condition called thoracic outlet syndrome as I have all the symptoms of it and this can cause a blood clot what a surprise! I also read a story about a woman who had a tumour on her artery in her neck and was seconds away from death. Im just sick of worrying ALL THE TIME! I'm 18 years old i should be out with my friends but I'm sat here worrying about life threatening conditions when all i probably have is a trapped nerve or something. Anyways I was wondering, like does anybody on here ever google their symptoms and then convince themselves they have something and it makes them physically feel ill/pain even more because they're worrying about it?
I wish there was a miracle cure for anxiety, I know I'm not alone i honestly sympathise 10 billion percent with people who suffer with this. I think its time I went to the doctors and told them how I am feeling and try to get some help with this because to be quite honest I've wasted 2 years of my life worrying and i don't want to waste anymore :( thank you for reading <3
It just seems like for the past few months i've been at rock bottom, I'm finding it really hard to pick myself up. Like usually I'll have panic attacks about it and convince myself I must be dying and I'll get over it in like a couple of weeks and be fine for a few months but recently i've been struggling. I never told my parents about my fears because I didn't think they'd understand, but last week I had a massive panic attack and decided it was time to tell them. They were supportive at the time because I was upset but now they're just well its like they don't get it at all. I think that anyone who hasn't been there and had constant worries and fear will ever get how an anxiety sufferer feels. Anyway recently Ive had this bad pain in my chest which goes up to my neck down my arm causing pain in my armpit and shoulder. Im really really worried about its like I can't help but google my symptoms either which makes things a million times worse. So far I have diagnosed myself with a rare condition called thoracic outlet syndrome as I have all the symptoms of it and this can cause a blood clot what a surprise! I also read a story about a woman who had a tumour on her artery in her neck and was seconds away from death. Im just sick of worrying ALL THE TIME! I'm 18 years old i should be out with my friends but I'm sat here worrying about life threatening conditions when all i probably have is a trapped nerve or something. Anyways I was wondering, like does anybody on here ever google their symptoms and then convince themselves they have something and it makes them physically feel ill/pain even more because they're worrying about it?
I wish there was a miracle cure for anxiety, I know I'm not alone i honestly sympathise 10 billion percent with people who suffer with this. I think its time I went to the doctors and told them how I am feeling and try to get some help with this because to be quite honest I've wasted 2 years of my life worrying and i don't want to waste anymore :( thank you for reading <3