Gopala
17-03-12, 16:49
Hi everyone
Around 4 months ago i started obsessively worrying if my kids may have seen "porn" online as there was a problem with the internet filter we have. There has never been any evidence to suggest they saw anything, rather i just thought "what if" and it escalated from there. I started feeling im a terrible parent and lot's of guilt and then a new "worry" came - what if i would hurt them? This is total nonsense as i love my kids more than anything and wouldnt hurt a fly - this is true i catch them and put them outside lol. I started obsessing all the "what ifs" and started having terrible anxiety attacks which got so bad i have started taking citalopram 20 mg and mitrazapine 15mg. Its been about 2 weeks on the meds and i can feel it easing off for sure but still im worried about my weird thoughts. I am on the waiting list for CBT but it could be a few months and have read 2 very good books "Brainlock" and "At last a life". Brainlock suggests i may have OCD says its a brain issue but "at last a life" suggests its all because of anxiety. As this all seems to have started when i started "obsessing" over one thing i would think its maybe GAD? What do you think? Thanks :)
Around 4 months ago i started obsessively worrying if my kids may have seen "porn" online as there was a problem with the internet filter we have. There has never been any evidence to suggest they saw anything, rather i just thought "what if" and it escalated from there. I started feeling im a terrible parent and lot's of guilt and then a new "worry" came - what if i would hurt them? This is total nonsense as i love my kids more than anything and wouldnt hurt a fly - this is true i catch them and put them outside lol. I started obsessing all the "what ifs" and started having terrible anxiety attacks which got so bad i have started taking citalopram 20 mg and mitrazapine 15mg. Its been about 2 weeks on the meds and i can feel it easing off for sure but still im worried about my weird thoughts. I am on the waiting list for CBT but it could be a few months and have read 2 very good books "Brainlock" and "At last a life". Brainlock suggests i may have OCD says its a brain issue but "at last a life" suggests its all because of anxiety. As this all seems to have started when i started "obsessing" over one thing i would think its maybe GAD? What do you think? Thanks :)