EverythingIsAlright
19-03-12, 13:59
Hey, I'm EverythingIsAlright. This name because of one of my favorite bands, Motion City Soundtrack, has a song with this title, and I relate to some of the lyrics:
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Cause I hate the ocean, theme parks and airplanes,
Talking with strangers, waiting in line..
(...)
"Are you feeling fine?"
Yes, I feel just fine.
(...)
I'm sick of the things I do when I'm nervous
(...)
counting the number of tiles in the ceiling
(...)
I used to rely on self-medication,
I guess I still do that from time to time.
Well, hi. I've come to a point that my mind has taken over my life and I have to talk a lot about it to cope - I've started to go to a psychologist in February but it's only the beginning of a long road...
I have bathophobia, social phobia, agoraphobia, stage fright (which is BAD since I'm a musician)... I'm scared of spiders, wasps, the dark, anything I don't know/trust... I'm afraid of getting critique, I'm afraid of the future, and my mind sometimes makes reality even scarier than a nightmare. I have a very slight mysophobia, and have some traits of high-functioning autism, ocd, bipolar disorder, borderline disorder, etc... But I'm not diagnosed for any of these things (yet). I suffer from some sort of depression, but also have good moments.
I have been anxious for all my life, and get panic attacks and sometimes hyperventilate. I don't remember what it's like to be carefree, and I can't imagine feeling that way ever again.
I'm the only one I know who has all this, specially for my age (20), so I hope to find like-minded people on this forum. :)
(...)
Cause I hate the ocean, theme parks and airplanes,
Talking with strangers, waiting in line..
(...)
"Are you feeling fine?"
Yes, I feel just fine.
(...)
I'm sick of the things I do when I'm nervous
(...)
counting the number of tiles in the ceiling
(...)
I used to rely on self-medication,
I guess I still do that from time to time.
Well, hi. I've come to a point that my mind has taken over my life and I have to talk a lot about it to cope - I've started to go to a psychologist in February but it's only the beginning of a long road...
I have bathophobia, social phobia, agoraphobia, stage fright (which is BAD since I'm a musician)... I'm scared of spiders, wasps, the dark, anything I don't know/trust... I'm afraid of getting critique, I'm afraid of the future, and my mind sometimes makes reality even scarier than a nightmare. I have a very slight mysophobia, and have some traits of high-functioning autism, ocd, bipolar disorder, borderline disorder, etc... But I'm not diagnosed for any of these things (yet). I suffer from some sort of depression, but also have good moments.
I have been anxious for all my life, and get panic attacks and sometimes hyperventilate. I don't remember what it's like to be carefree, and I can't imagine feeling that way ever again.
I'm the only one I know who has all this, specially for my age (20), so I hope to find like-minded people on this forum. :)