W.I.F.T.S.
29-06-06, 13:36
I've always been fine travelling round England and wales and even enjoyed it. The thought of going to Scotland made me feel uneasy because I had the image in my head of travelling 'up' the world and I might fall back.
I've been to Ireland, France, Spain, Holland and Belgium and felt great, really free.
I just can't seem to get my head round the world being this huge rock spinning round in space and we're all these tiny little specks on it's surface. I never even used to think about it, I never questioned what was beneath my feet and I was 'ok'. I think that is how you have to be really. You just have to get on with it and just take the things that you actually 'see' at face value. More often that not I think fear is about things that you can't see.
I really would love to travel the world, that is my great ambition. I'm petrified of large bodies of water and long haul travelling (being on the other side of the world) is one of my biggest nightmares, so if I ever get to America, China or Australia I've really done something amazing.
I know I can do it and I know that it is something that I have built up in my mind. Even in the early days of my illness I was still thinking of trips abroad, so I know that it is something that I could enjoy and look forward to.
I think a big part of my depression is feeling that I'm trapped in this tiny little part of the world when there is so much that I want to see and do.
I would love to go to all the major cities of Europe.
i just have to have faith that gravity won't fail- that is me worrying that I'll fall down the world. How irrational, how preposterous. the world has been like this for millions of years and even if gravity did fail I would float off, not drop down.
Ships in harbour are safe..but that's not what ships were built for.
I've been to Ireland, France, Spain, Holland and Belgium and felt great, really free.
I just can't seem to get my head round the world being this huge rock spinning round in space and we're all these tiny little specks on it's surface. I never even used to think about it, I never questioned what was beneath my feet and I was 'ok'. I think that is how you have to be really. You just have to get on with it and just take the things that you actually 'see' at face value. More often that not I think fear is about things that you can't see.
I really would love to travel the world, that is my great ambition. I'm petrified of large bodies of water and long haul travelling (being on the other side of the world) is one of my biggest nightmares, so if I ever get to America, China or Australia I've really done something amazing.
I know I can do it and I know that it is something that I have built up in my mind. Even in the early days of my illness I was still thinking of trips abroad, so I know that it is something that I could enjoy and look forward to.
I think a big part of my depression is feeling that I'm trapped in this tiny little part of the world when there is so much that I want to see and do.
I would love to go to all the major cities of Europe.
i just have to have faith that gravity won't fail- that is me worrying that I'll fall down the world. How irrational, how preposterous. the world has been like this for millions of years and even if gravity did fail I would float off, not drop down.
Ships in harbour are safe..but that's not what ships were built for.