blondie2809
27-03-12, 14:05
Hi,
This is my first post on this website. I've had CBT for panic attacks over a year ago and I sort of thought i'd figured this whole thing out, until recently I've realised it hasn't dissapeared.
My work is stressful and holding me back, I regularly have panic attacks on the train to work and I know its because I dread going there.
The thing is I desperately want to leave and have done for about 2 years now, but im so scared of the day I leave when I have to give a leaving speech. The idea makes me so scared that I put off getting a new job.
I know this situation is stupid....im putting off moving ahead because of 15 mins of being thrust in to the limelight amongst my peers.
I've thought about maybe I could leave half way during the day and just leave an email saying goodbye.....is that bad?
Im now considering hypnotism for public speaking just so I can get through it.
I've told a family member and they've said....just don't worry, its literally a few minutes you just have to feel bad/embarassed. But I know its not just that simple....the moment I hand in my notice, for the 30 days i have remaining at work, the only thing I will have on my mind is that last day and the 30 or so people crowding around my desk all looking at me, expecting me to talk and behave calmly. I will work myself up in to a frenzy and make myself ill.
I feel im stuck here......any advice?
b xx
This is my first post on this website. I've had CBT for panic attacks over a year ago and I sort of thought i'd figured this whole thing out, until recently I've realised it hasn't dissapeared.
My work is stressful and holding me back, I regularly have panic attacks on the train to work and I know its because I dread going there.
The thing is I desperately want to leave and have done for about 2 years now, but im so scared of the day I leave when I have to give a leaving speech. The idea makes me so scared that I put off getting a new job.
I know this situation is stupid....im putting off moving ahead because of 15 mins of being thrust in to the limelight amongst my peers.
I've thought about maybe I could leave half way during the day and just leave an email saying goodbye.....is that bad?
Im now considering hypnotism for public speaking just so I can get through it.
I've told a family member and they've said....just don't worry, its literally a few minutes you just have to feel bad/embarassed. But I know its not just that simple....the moment I hand in my notice, for the 30 days i have remaining at work, the only thing I will have on my mind is that last day and the 30 or so people crowding around my desk all looking at me, expecting me to talk and behave calmly. I will work myself up in to a frenzy and make myself ill.
I feel im stuck here......any advice?
b xx