MaryMac
02-04-12, 16:13
Hi everyone, I've not been on here for a few weeks but thought I'd give a little update. The last 5 months have been dreadful for my HA, convinced I have leukemia or lymphoma and obsessively checking google for symptoms. However a couple of weeks ago, my holiday came round and I was sort of dreading it because of the thoughts... "What if I get ill on the plane?" "What if I get ill over there and need treatment?" "What if... what if... what if..."
I have to say, despite usual my anxiety over the flight, (always hated flying!) I had an ABSOLUTE BALL. There was NO anxiety and I felt better and ate better than I have in months. I had such a great time and I caught myself thinking several times "why have I wasted so much time?"
I didn't want to come home, but here I am! Still feel slightly jetlagged (well I hope that's what it is ) But the whole trip gave me a renewed vigour and I am going to start living my life the way it should be lived. I've been having little seeds of doubt in the last couple of days, I still have what I think is an enlarged lymph node, I feel tired, and have had itchy skin but my common sense tells me that it's probably not an enlarged node and I'm overreacting, I'm jetlagged, my skin is dry because I was out in the sun so much and got a little bit burnt. (Bad me!)
All in all, a fabulous time and I hope this feeling of non-anxiety lasts and I hope you are all doing well. xx
I have to say, despite usual my anxiety over the flight, (always hated flying!) I had an ABSOLUTE BALL. There was NO anxiety and I felt better and ate better than I have in months. I had such a great time and I caught myself thinking several times "why have I wasted so much time?"
I didn't want to come home, but here I am! Still feel slightly jetlagged (well I hope that's what it is ) But the whole trip gave me a renewed vigour and I am going to start living my life the way it should be lived. I've been having little seeds of doubt in the last couple of days, I still have what I think is an enlarged lymph node, I feel tired, and have had itchy skin but my common sense tells me that it's probably not an enlarged node and I'm overreacting, I'm jetlagged, my skin is dry because I was out in the sun so much and got a little bit burnt. (Bad me!)
All in all, a fabulous time and I hope this feeling of non-anxiety lasts and I hope you are all doing well. xx