Billy_Talent_
30-06-06, 23:06
Hi,
Well this isnt going to be easy, but i guess thats partly the point.
I was wondering, as we are all here its most likely we've all suffered it, but when in socail situations and you panic what do you do? I mean how does it manifest itself? Stuff like when you feel panicked do you have to get away from people?
This is the problem, im a naturally pessimistic person, have low self esteem and generally over analyse everything i do to the 'nth' degree, however i thought this was just general teenage stuff everyone goes through. Over the past year ive been getting very anxious before meeting with my friends. Its strange because i joined a 6th form 2 years ago and was fine for most the 1st year. I'm quiet so not particularly good at meeting people but I was alright and made some good friends. To try and cut a long story short. I started dating one of my friends. We then broke up, for various reasons, but we still have feelings for each other. We broke up a year and 1/2 ago now, but i started getting very strong anxiety feelings whenever i met her (starting) about 6 months after we broke up. This usually resulted in me rushing outside / to the toilet to vomit. I then come back feel alright for a few minutes then the anxiety builds up again. However the more I've thought about it over the last year the more frequent and more severe its got. I cant even meet my other friends without feeling very anxious. The other thing is that i cant eat infront of my friends, i used to be able to, but even the meerest taste of food and I need to throw up. Basically I dont know what to do. In everything else i do im fine, its just annoying because it means i no longer enjoy meeting my friends. I just feel sick the whole time. I have told the girl i like about the anxiety, but she doesnt seem to understand and i cant say she's causing me to be ill.
The other thing is when i was doing exams i tended to lose all appetite and now having finished them, i still rarely feel hungry, i tend to feel sick even at the thought of food. Its not annorexia or anything, im alright with my weight its just the association eating seems to have with the socail scene. There are situations when i meet up with other people for sporting events and have a meal afterwards in which I dont feel sick at all.
I have tried to battle the anxiety, but i never seem to win. I am posting this now because my College ball is on wednesday and i have asked the girl i dated to go with me. Im just nervous that im going to ruin both her night and mine by being sick. The trouble is its become so bad whenever i even think about the ball i feel ill. Ive been thinking of taking some diazepam before i go to make sure i feel alright. The thing is ive never taken pills for anything more than headaches and dont want to take a mood altering drug because i want to be myself.
Any advice you can give would be great. Thanks
Well this isnt going to be easy, but i guess thats partly the point.
I was wondering, as we are all here its most likely we've all suffered it, but when in socail situations and you panic what do you do? I mean how does it manifest itself? Stuff like when you feel panicked do you have to get away from people?
This is the problem, im a naturally pessimistic person, have low self esteem and generally over analyse everything i do to the 'nth' degree, however i thought this was just general teenage stuff everyone goes through. Over the past year ive been getting very anxious before meeting with my friends. Its strange because i joined a 6th form 2 years ago and was fine for most the 1st year. I'm quiet so not particularly good at meeting people but I was alright and made some good friends. To try and cut a long story short. I started dating one of my friends. We then broke up, for various reasons, but we still have feelings for each other. We broke up a year and 1/2 ago now, but i started getting very strong anxiety feelings whenever i met her (starting) about 6 months after we broke up. This usually resulted in me rushing outside / to the toilet to vomit. I then come back feel alright for a few minutes then the anxiety builds up again. However the more I've thought about it over the last year the more frequent and more severe its got. I cant even meet my other friends without feeling very anxious. The other thing is that i cant eat infront of my friends, i used to be able to, but even the meerest taste of food and I need to throw up. Basically I dont know what to do. In everything else i do im fine, its just annoying because it means i no longer enjoy meeting my friends. I just feel sick the whole time. I have told the girl i like about the anxiety, but she doesnt seem to understand and i cant say she's causing me to be ill.
The other thing is when i was doing exams i tended to lose all appetite and now having finished them, i still rarely feel hungry, i tend to feel sick even at the thought of food. Its not annorexia or anything, im alright with my weight its just the association eating seems to have with the socail scene. There are situations when i meet up with other people for sporting events and have a meal afterwards in which I dont feel sick at all.
I have tried to battle the anxiety, but i never seem to win. I am posting this now because my College ball is on wednesday and i have asked the girl i dated to go with me. Im just nervous that im going to ruin both her night and mine by being sick. The trouble is its become so bad whenever i even think about the ball i feel ill. Ive been thinking of taking some diazepam before i go to make sure i feel alright. The thing is ive never taken pills for anything more than headaches and dont want to take a mood altering drug because i want to be myself.
Any advice you can give would be great. Thanks