SunnyDay
06-04-12, 12:57
Where to start, well, I'm a horse owner, I have a lovely horse and have owned him for three years but I am forever loosing confidence on him, I've never fallen off him and he's not actually particularly naughty, I've ridden for 25 years and have never actually had a bad fall or really bad experience.
So on a whim I went to see my GP and he diagnosed me with a (I think) 'Freeforming Anxiety Disorder' her started me on a course of Citlropam (sp), gave me a prescription for some books and a helpline number to call.
Thinking about it my anxiety does extend much further than the horse riding, but I learn to work round other things in life (my motto is "have a plan, a back up plan, a secondary plan, a tertiary plan and then back it all up again") but I just can't work round the horse riding issue and I love it so much that's what pushed me into seeing my GP, it's an expensive way to be unhappy.
So, where am I? I'm at the stage where I'm waiting for the Citlropam to kick in, which can be 2?3? 6?! weeks?
I know I should ride my horse today so I'm having a really bad day, I feel anxious and tearful and I know he will pick up on it, I walked the dog earlier and that helped me take my mind off it a bit.
So, there we go, that's where I am at the moment just looking for thoughts, advice and support :)
So on a whim I went to see my GP and he diagnosed me with a (I think) 'Freeforming Anxiety Disorder' her started me on a course of Citlropam (sp), gave me a prescription for some books and a helpline number to call.
Thinking about it my anxiety does extend much further than the horse riding, but I learn to work round other things in life (my motto is "have a plan, a back up plan, a secondary plan, a tertiary plan and then back it all up again") but I just can't work round the horse riding issue and I love it so much that's what pushed me into seeing my GP, it's an expensive way to be unhappy.
So, where am I? I'm at the stage where I'm waiting for the Citlropam to kick in, which can be 2?3? 6?! weeks?
I know I should ride my horse today so I'm having a really bad day, I feel anxious and tearful and I know he will pick up on it, I walked the dog earlier and that helped me take my mind off it a bit.
So, there we go, that's where I am at the moment just looking for thoughts, advice and support :)