lakepalmer41
11-04-12, 11:03
Hello to you all, I have been diagnosed with depression/anxiety since 2002. After a 4 year period of Non stop stress,i developed a flu like virus which stayed with me for 2 years solid. After numerous blood tests & alternative therapies,i started medication. First two attempts were no good & the third was sertraline (zoloft) 50mg along with 3mg valium,after 2 weeks my physical symptoms lifted and for the first time in years i felt normal again. The next seven years consisted of drinking,drugs,blacking out,fighting,ending in a police cell,ending in hospital,burning bridges everywhere & being in total denial about depression. My reminder would be the flu like virus returning every now & then. I finally got to the point where enough was enough & i quit alcohol in jan 2010. In 2008 i stopped taking medication & all of the virus symptoms hit me like a ton of bricks,i got so anxious & my GP advised to start again on 150mg which i did,it seem to take ages,but i started to feel better. Since being diagnosed 10 years ago,my life seems to be a cycle of feeling ok,catching a virus & after a month of still feeling ill,getting anxiety attacks about whether or not it's depression,anxiety or i really have caught a virus. Whilst in this thought process i become suicidal,i keep playing it over & over hanging myself. I recently caught a cold that was difficult to shake off,then felt ok for 2 days now feel that virus like feeling in my head & feel totally deflated. Angry at my doctor, angry at my shrink and angry at myself,
I am questioning my meds & feeling disillusioned with the whole thing.
I am questioning my meds & feeling disillusioned with the whole thing.