aldupre
03-07-06, 04:53
Hi guys,
Well there's nothing much new to report, but I feel like I need some "personal contact" with you guys. My vertigo is still here. I see the neurologist on the 13th and the ENT on the 24th. Hopefully, it'll resolve itself sooner than this and I can cancel, but my next step after these appointments if they don't resolve it is to see a balance specialist....yes, they do exist. I found a nice web page that listed all of the ones located in Ohio. You could look at all 50 states. If anyone needs the site, PM me and I'll send it to you. All of the balance specialists in Ohio specialized in geriatrics, also (that didn't make me feel too good, lol)
Now the thing that's really weighing on my mind is just an overall feeling of anxiety and lingering hand tremors and limp. I'm pretty sure lots of my anxiety is because everything is so up in the air for me right now, with deciding if I'll finish my PhD or go back home to Louisiana. Of course, one of the instruments that I need to complete my work is down indefinitely. I swear, every time that I feel like I'm about to have my "big break", something like this happens. I hate school so much, but I don't want to regret leaving, even though I really don't think I'll ever regret it right now. I'm just not in the frame of mind to make such a life-altering decision. At least I don't have to worry about my husband...he's so awesome. He just says he'll support me in whatever I decide to do. I feel guilty, though because our lives have basically been on hold while I'm in school, not to mention the money I've borrowed while here. When my depression was at its worst, I was convinced I'd ruined our lives...you guys know the snowball effect--- I'll quit school, Rob'll have to stay in a job he hates, I won't be able to get a job, we'll go bankrupt, we'll never be able to buy a house, we'll never be in a position to have kids, etc, etc, etc. Crazy, huh? But nothing could stop the freight train once it got going. Has anyone else had any kind of experience with this? I'd really appreciate some responses.
Take care everyone,
April
Well there's nothing much new to report, but I feel like I need some "personal contact" with you guys. My vertigo is still here. I see the neurologist on the 13th and the ENT on the 24th. Hopefully, it'll resolve itself sooner than this and I can cancel, but my next step after these appointments if they don't resolve it is to see a balance specialist....yes, they do exist. I found a nice web page that listed all of the ones located in Ohio. You could look at all 50 states. If anyone needs the site, PM me and I'll send it to you. All of the balance specialists in Ohio specialized in geriatrics, also (that didn't make me feel too good, lol)
Now the thing that's really weighing on my mind is just an overall feeling of anxiety and lingering hand tremors and limp. I'm pretty sure lots of my anxiety is because everything is so up in the air for me right now, with deciding if I'll finish my PhD or go back home to Louisiana. Of course, one of the instruments that I need to complete my work is down indefinitely. I swear, every time that I feel like I'm about to have my "big break", something like this happens. I hate school so much, but I don't want to regret leaving, even though I really don't think I'll ever regret it right now. I'm just not in the frame of mind to make such a life-altering decision. At least I don't have to worry about my husband...he's so awesome. He just says he'll support me in whatever I decide to do. I feel guilty, though because our lives have basically been on hold while I'm in school, not to mention the money I've borrowed while here. When my depression was at its worst, I was convinced I'd ruined our lives...you guys know the snowball effect--- I'll quit school, Rob'll have to stay in a job he hates, I won't be able to get a job, we'll go bankrupt, we'll never be able to buy a house, we'll never be in a position to have kids, etc, etc, etc. Crazy, huh? But nothing could stop the freight train once it got going. Has anyone else had any kind of experience with this? I'd really appreciate some responses.
Take care everyone,
April