gravenidol
14-04-12, 13:11
Hey all, I've just registered as I've been having alot of trouble recently with my anxiety.
It pretty much started this time last year, I was completing an apprenticeship in Accountancy, my life was pretty good until I was run over after work. I was off for a while and when I returned I found myself feeling slightly anxious going to and from work. I began to have trouble with my manager, she would be quite sharp with me over having time off and perhaps not completing work to her standard due to being unwell. It got to the point where I had to leave because I would have anxiety attacks every day.
Then my mother left our family home and I was living with my stepdad, then he kicked me out and I'm now living with my dad. Shortly after this I started to find it hard to leave the house after having panic attacks at college, to the point where I dropped off my course, which really dented my confidence.
I eventually saw my GP, who was quite frankly shit. She told me that I wasn't having anxiety attacks long enough to be prescribed anything, and gave me Lorazepam, which as you can imagine made things 10x worse. I lost a considerable amount of weight, I think about 5 stone, so I went back to my GP [a different one] and prescribed Citalopram 20mg.
After two weeks I started to feel normal again, but unfortunately on New Years Day, my brother was killed in a car accident, and ever since I've struggled to live day to day. My medication was changed to Mirtazapine 30mg, which initially helped, but 2 weeks ago it was upped to 45mg. Everytime I start to feel ok, I just relapse and feel even worse than before, I've gotten to the point again where I can't leave the house, I can't use public transport thanks to an incident last week, where I freaked out on a train and nearly fainted.
I have alot of support off my family, but the only one who understood what I'm going through was my brother [he suffered with a social disorder] but now he's gone, I feel so lost :sad:
Sorry for the long post, I just really feel like I need to let it all out, it's pretty much been the worst year of my life, and I can't see how I'm going to get past it.
It pretty much started this time last year, I was completing an apprenticeship in Accountancy, my life was pretty good until I was run over after work. I was off for a while and when I returned I found myself feeling slightly anxious going to and from work. I began to have trouble with my manager, she would be quite sharp with me over having time off and perhaps not completing work to her standard due to being unwell. It got to the point where I had to leave because I would have anxiety attacks every day.
Then my mother left our family home and I was living with my stepdad, then he kicked me out and I'm now living with my dad. Shortly after this I started to find it hard to leave the house after having panic attacks at college, to the point where I dropped off my course, which really dented my confidence.
I eventually saw my GP, who was quite frankly shit. She told me that I wasn't having anxiety attacks long enough to be prescribed anything, and gave me Lorazepam, which as you can imagine made things 10x worse. I lost a considerable amount of weight, I think about 5 stone, so I went back to my GP [a different one] and prescribed Citalopram 20mg.
After two weeks I started to feel normal again, but unfortunately on New Years Day, my brother was killed in a car accident, and ever since I've struggled to live day to day. My medication was changed to Mirtazapine 30mg, which initially helped, but 2 weeks ago it was upped to 45mg. Everytime I start to feel ok, I just relapse and feel even worse than before, I've gotten to the point again where I can't leave the house, I can't use public transport thanks to an incident last week, where I freaked out on a train and nearly fainted.
I have alot of support off my family, but the only one who understood what I'm going through was my brother [he suffered with a social disorder] but now he's gone, I feel so lost :sad:
Sorry for the long post, I just really feel like I need to let it all out, it's pretty much been the worst year of my life, and I can't see how I'm going to get past it.